Better In Time

your guardian angel

2009-02-06T07:36:00.000-08:00

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2009-01-24T00:43:00.000-08:00

The holidays are here :)

I was so excited about having holidays again I could hardly wait for Chinese New Year to come. Of course it won't be much fun spending it in penang due to the really really really hot and humid weather up there but nothing beats the food. Plus, traffic is going to be heavy driving up. Carissa and her family drove up today and it took them 7 bloody hours! They departed at 5.30 and only reached penang at about 12 something in the afternoon. That is so crazy. So it looks like I'll be hitting the books and dvds in the car tomorrow.

College has been alright lately. No full load of work YET so I still can head off shopping every wednesday with Ling. Haha. For example, on wednesday we went to midvalley and gardens and on friday we went to klcc and one utama. Sa ee finally bought her Anya Hindmarch handbag which is gorgeous by the way while mummy got her DKNY handbag as well. All ling and I could do was sit and drool over the bags. heh. However, I am scouting out for my upcoming expensive birthday present from my parents :)

We had the first taste of an exam question for law earlier this week and boy is it not easy. Not only do you have to memorise the history behind it, you have to elaborate why and how and such. Well it's actually not so bad but you need to be hardworking coz there isn't enough time during the actual exam like economics.

So anyway, remember when I had my family reunion dinner a week ago? It was at Grand Imperial, BSC and the room we were in ahd a couch. A nice comfy couch...

... at first there were 2...

... and then there were 5...

... then came 6... After our satisfying lunch, Ling and I dominated the couch with our legs up and slouching. Plus, Ling's dad who then fell asleep next to us. But the couch was the best part of the lunch :)

what we do during math class...

results of a day of shopping at midvalley and gardens

we're gonna use them to write to each other! :p

our entree for 4 people which Ling and I finished on our own.

and the aftermath of our entrees which were meant for 4 people.

bowls of pasta at italiannies.

I love the design :)

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone!

stupid stupid

2009-01-20T06:45:00.000-08:00

ughhhh...

my stupid stupid stupid @#$%@#%&# internet connection is bloody pissing me off. One minute it's on and the next it's off.

be back when it's more stable. toodles :)

a new look

2009-01-14T07:52:00.000-08:00

So it's goodbye long hair, hello short hair :)

Well it's not exactly short short but it's shorter than usual. After college today mum and I met up with ling and sa ee at ou. had lunch then walked around for a bit till it was time to leave for the hairdresser's. Ling and sa ee coloured their hair while I enviously looked on but I'm happy with my hair now. It's also time for a new manicure and pedicure which will be done either on saturday or some time next week. Plus, we still have our ladies night to go to before ling leaves for adelaide in february.

On an even brighter note, Mr Francis Dunn, my accounts lecturer, will be on leave from the 26th of January till the 3rd of February. Isn't that just peachy? :) So not I don't have to worry about missing accounts classes since the lecturer isn't going to be there. What I do have to worry about is missing law. Law is NOT easy so I can't really afford to miss many classes. Now it's up to my parents how long they want to spend CNY in penang.

ughh... I'm starting to dread tomorrow coz I've got classes from 10-7pm. Yes, I've got Moral Studies tomorrow. help me.

LAN classes

2009-01-12T03:56:00.000-08:00

LAN classes are a total waste of time. People just basically enter class, take their attendance, sit right at the back of the class and talk. We were given individual assignments as well as group assignments and we have to present them in either video, sketch, dance, song or whatever else. Bear in mind this is only Malaysian Studies. I don't even know what Moral Studies is going to be like.

So anyway, I decided to post up some random pictures up :)

my christmas present! i've always wanted it so thank you :)

13th feb, friday! :)

errr... enjoying the hot springs. haha

someone trying to be hero... *cough* :)

our nice buffet dinner

katt's birthday dinner :) along with bsc's newly refurbished toilet.

LAN classes...

Holiday mood

2009-01-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

the very thought of having to drag myself out of bed tomorrow morning to go to class is making me want to crawl into my bed and under the covers. how I envy ling who is going to wake up early tomorrow morning. why? to watch the 66th Golden Globe Awards. me? I have to go for my law class first thing in the morning.

although it does feel like I'm still on holiday coz there's no homework, no assignments, what so ever. I could even go shopping in klcc last wednesday with ling and sa ee. oh and that was where I might add, ms ching su ling gave 2 foreign people the wrong information about where the Apple shop is at. She sent them to the top most floor when it was actually on the 3rd floor. hahahahaha. they must've been thinking: "this malaysian girl.... sent us on a wild good chase" and we would've given them a bad impression about malaysians. haha.

Yuen has bought her rihanna concert tickets and I haven't. Well I'm hoping to be able to buy the tickets tomorrow after college at Actors' Studio, BSC. On wednesday ling and I plan to cut our hair. I'm still debating whether short or to keep the length....

Bedtime Stories

2009-01-09T01:52:00.000-08:00

Thank god the weekend is here. I'm still not used to waking up early although some days I only wake up at 8 but it's still horrible to have to drag myself out of bed every morning.

On the bright side, Chinese New Year's coming! Which means ang paos, cookies, good food, lazy afternoons in penang, reunion dinners/lunches and yee sang :)

Well after college today, I came home to the warmth and comfort of my couch where I feel asleep for 2 hours. haha. Then I had to go to Dr Barry's office. While there Ling called to ask whether we wanted to watch Bedtime Stories tonight. So the four of us ate at Overseas Restaurant in Jaya 1 where the service was horrible. It took them 45 minutes just to cook the stupid fish. ughhh...

katt and I are planning to go to rihanna's concert! :D mummy thinks we should buy the sitting tickets but I want the standing tickets coz what's the fun in sitting down to rihanna's songs?? ling was lucky to have chris brown in the concert that she watched. we however are not so lucky coz he isn't making an appearance here.

I am so looking forward to a loooooongggggg sleep tonight till tomorrow afternoon :)

College

2009-01-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

who knew my college timing for classes would be so flexible? :)

well, on monday I have a full day from 8-4. Tuesday I've got a break in between, Wednesday I am OFF! :D Thursday I start at 10 in the morning and friday I start at 8 till 10.

The second orientation today was mainly to tell us students about the subjects we are taking and what it's like if we were to take it. eng lit seemed really interesting and the lecturer did say that universities tend to look at your application a little more closely if you have eng lit as a subject but I don't think I would be able to handle it as I didn't take lit for SPM. oh well, I guess I just have to strive harder for my other subjects.

So after the orientation katt, jas, rach, sp, yee keat, quang, hwee yin and I went for lunch at Subway. We got a little taste of what we were going to have to eat for the next 1 and a half years. Later I finally got my student id done (I look horrible btw, stupid webcam) and then registered for my LAN subjects. ughhh... I don't understand why we still have to do malaysian studies AND moral studies.

At 5 I had an appointment with Dr Barry. Apparently I have an imbalanced spine, tailbone and pelvis... great. So now I have to go see him for adjustments twice a week and then do lots of exercises to strengthen my back. I feel like an old lady and I'm only 17 years old. I can just imagine myself crawling or flat on the ground when i'm 60. Ling, you'd better take care of me :p

you used to be there but no longer are...

Happy New Year

2009-01-04T00:50:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year :)

When 2009 approached, I started thinking of some possible resolutions for the new year. For example:

- start studying from the beginning (yeah right... was the same thing I said in the beginning of form 5)

Let's just say after that thought I gave up on all other potential resolutions :)

Ling and I ushered in the new year with pretty fingernails which came at a big price of not being able to do lots of things without having to constantly check whether our nails were scratched. We later had dinner at Rakuzen and then home. We somehow managed to miss the countdown because:

1. Ling couldn't pop the poppers
2. Mummy couldn't light the candles on the cake
3. I didn't hear the tv go: "3... 2... 1!"

It was fun though and then I subjected myself to my name being called out repeatedly every few seconds *ahem!* :)

January the 2nd was gee-ee's birthday. We had a surprise dinner for her at Grand Imperial, Bangsar Shopping Center. So we got there at around 7.20pm with some time to spare before gee-ee and gee tiao arrived so ling and I headed downstairs to get gee-ee a present. Just as we thought gee-ee was coming, ling and I quickly hid behind the chairs. Turns out she was going to take longer than we expected so I ended up sitting on the floor. Haha. The dinner was good which included my favourites: suckling pig and sharks fin :)

College starts on 6th of January. There's another orientation tomorrow to explain our subjects to us plus also to let us know which group we're in. I hope I'm in the same group as some people that I know. This reminds me of my first day at Cempaka and I remember it was terrfying. I'm not good at starting over but I still manage to pull through.

that last kiss, I'll cherish...

heaven

2008-12-30T06:53:00.000-08:00

my deepest apologies for the lack of update. I've finally had the time to just sit down, check my email and everything else. Well I've been going out almost everyday ever since SPM ended and those few days when I'm not out, I'm stuck watching the korean series my aunty and ling got me stuck on :p I'll get to that soon.

The trip to Mount Kinabalu was very eye opening and plentiful exciting, I might add. By exciting I mean having altitude sickness, having muscle pains all over, encountering HUGE grasshoppers the size of birds and whining for civilisation. Haha yes, it was definitely an experience. Well I didn't make it up to the peak though I really would've liked to but due to altitude sickness while climbing up to the rest point which was 3/4 of the way up the mountain, heading up to the peak at 2 am in the morning was a big no no for me.

Katt couldn't climb up either due to the sprained ankle so the both of us slept in till aisyah came bursting into our room. Climbing down was horrible. In the beginning it was fun coz you know the more I climbed down, the more I could breathe. But soon it got really hard coz the climb down really took a toll on our knees and legs. My knees buckled under me so many times plus the mud wasn't helping me. Thank goodness both dani and vk were there to help me. fd on the other hand took a really long time to come down coz her knees were giving her problems.

The next morning we all woke up with very very very sore limbs and muscles. The hot spring didn't help much which brings me to my theory of not trusting malaysian facilities, really. Sapi Island was fun with the banana boat and all. Then the hotel on the last day was the best :) It was a good way to end my school.

While everyone headed to the airport on the last day, I met up with my parents in the airport and extended my stay in Kota Kinabalu. We stayed at the Nexus Karambunai Hotel. The rooms were huge and I could dance in the bathroom. Just what I needed after my expedition. As usual, I lazed around like a big fat pig in the hotel room so you could say that it was money well spent on the room :p The beach was beautiful along with the scenery. But alas, all good things must come to an end.

That night after we landed in KL, we went out for dinner at the club with ling and her family. We had jap and after me saying: "I'm not hungry, I don't wanna eat", I ended up eating a lot. Then they had a good time laughing at me as I came down the stairs sideways, like a crab :(

On the 20th of December was ling's 18th birthday! I had lunch in starhill then to the hospital to visit my uncle then to klang for ling's birthday dinner. The food was really good and I know of someone who ate to her heart's content *wink* The cake was a unique cake coz it was a cupcake cake. We bought her roxy shorts plus a red packet for her big birthday this year. Haha.

The next day was Mamma Mia! day. We had mcd's for lunch then quickly headed to Istana Budaya so that we could get good parking. The show was amazing, it was so good! One of the best musicals I've been to. Well, partly because I love the songs and the dancers plus one of the male leads was hot :) Genius ling brought her binoculars and we were looking through them throughout the whole show. We could scrutinize everyone on stage and look at their expressions. Plus, there was the occasional: "Oh look at the one to the far right, cute right?" or "omg, look at the one on the left. so hot!!" haha. We did however manage to get a picture with Sky or Gary Watson, one of the male leads :)

Ever since then I've been out with Min Hua (before he leaves for uk), been out with my primary classmates, been out with ling, sa ee and gee ee. Today the 5 of us, me, ling, sa ee, gee ee and mummy went to gsc signature to watch Australia. It was a really good movie. Ip Man is also a good movie, the kung fu was cool plus it was quite sad in the end but all in all a good movie. Yes Man was really funny seeing as Jim Carrey was in it. Now all I wanna watch is Bedtime Stories.

Oh and as for how I started watching korean shows, it was when sa ee just gave it to me so I decided to try it. It was worth the try :) true, mummy said that they over dramatize it but it works and I cried so much. I spent the whole day watching it yesterday and as a result I ended up having swollen, puffy, red eyes. But the actors and actresses are really talented in acting. The first one I watched was Stairway to Heaven. The songs in the show are really nice so I'm trying to get it off ling along with the piano scores and this is my very cheap (and by cheap I mean no cost) birthday present. Haha.

I must must must get to writing an email to lisa...

more pictures will be up soon! :)

Home!

2008-12-19T07:59:00.000-08:00

Back home at last!

Will update tomorrow or something. Dead tired and sleepy :(

Overdue

2008-12-11T01:53:00.000-08:00

So I am back to update after quite a long absence but sadly it's going to another long absence after this post as I'll be off to Kota Kinabalu tomorrow morning. So so so so...

Prom was great, got to see san and finally met abigail in person :) Started off a little rocky coz you know, gotta keep on a look out for my mum but in the end it turned out great. There was a band and a really funny DJ plus some games and awards for Prom King, Prom Queen, Class Clown, Naughtiest, Cutest Couple and Best Dressed. The games were funny especially the folding the newspaper where couples had to try their best to step on the newspaper while dancing with each other. It was funny seeing them struggle and we also saw amongst other stuff.... but back to the topic. Went home at around 12 midnight, exhausted, a little sad but altogether still happy :)

Next day was shopping day for Katt's present with Jas as well as for Quang's present and San's present. So I met up with Jas at 11 then started walking up and down Gardens looking for thw most suitable present for Katt. Half-way through we got distracted by my goal to get Quang's pressie then later we decided on Katt's pressie and finally I decided on San's pressie. Met up with Min Hua and his sister for lunch and they tagged along for some shopping. Jas had to go home early so it was just me, Min Hua and his sister walking around Mid Valley and Gardens aimlessly. I spent the whole day in shoes that were too small for my feet so in the end I succumbed to buying a new pair of slippers from Roxy (I've been planning to get one anyway. heh) While Ter Ching and I were in Roxy shopping, poor Min Hua was stuck outside with our popcorn so he decided to FINISH them. hahaha. Ter Ching was kind enough to let me sign up for her Roxy member card so I now have exclusive invites to members' sales !! *scream*

On Monday we introduced Ling, Sa ee and Sa tiao to Allegro where I had my clam soup again plus my spaghetti vongole and tiramisu for dessert :) This time we had a little chat with the chef coz he wasn't that busy. We found out that his sister works for Dolce & Gabana! The moment Ling and I heard that our reactions were priceless. hahahha. His sister works in the label department. Yep, they have a whole department just for their labels. Sigh.. The life of the rich and famous.

Tuesday wasn't a good day for me coz I started having my lower back pains again and it scared me to death coz I thought what happened the last time was happening again and it was just 3 days away from my Mount K trip. It wasn't as bad this time though coz I could still get up but nevertheless the pain was still there. So my mum brought me to see the chiropractor, Dr Barry Kluner, and we found out that my spine went out of alignment yet again which caused the muscles there to spasm and that was the pain that I was having. So lots of stretching exercises had to be done plus lots of icing to bring the swelling down. It's been getting better each day but I need to take it easy. The good news is I can still go to Mount K but I need to be very careful.

That night was Katt's birthday dinner at Alexis, Bangsar Shopping Center. The food was good but the room they placed us in was very cold. Even the boys complained that it was cold. haha. Then we ajourned to Coffee Bean where we meant the most adorable kid who ran to Niraj but apparently it wasn't Niraj that he liked but rather all the girls sitting at the table :p bsc didn't really change much except for the outside. The inside is still pretty much the same but the toilets are so so so much cleaner.

Wednesday was full of shopping for Mount K stuff. Note to self: If ever you're stuck in a luggage shop with my mum, make sure you bring food and drinks with you coz she'll just leave you to starve and die of hunger. You know how when us girls step into a handbag or clothing store and our eyes just go gaga? It's like that with my mum and luggage shops. haha. Regardless she bought 2 luggages and I'm taking one for my trip :)

I've finally got some down time today after going out almost everyday since SPM finished. However, I've still got lots of packing to do. Plus I've got loads of pictures to upload but I don't think I'll be able to coz the sizes are really big. I'll just upload them by intervals :) Or you can just check them out on my facebook profile :)

Finally

2008-12-04T07:07:00.000-08:00

So after walking around for 9 endless hours, I finally found my prom dress and it was thanks to Ling who spotted it :)

Yesterday was the Mount K briefing and the list that they gave us requires me to get a lot of stuff. I'm excited though about the trip and the trip later on with my parents. Well after the briefing I followed mummy while she did her errands then later on to the gym. 50 minutes on the treadmill after a month of absence is killing but I managed to get through it and then later died. Haha.

I bought nail polishes which are really really pretty then I did my own manicure and pedicure coz I don't wanna get a professional before going up to Mount K so I'll just get it when I come back. sigh. I can't believe school's over and college is going to start soon and I can still remember those nights before an exam when I would be thinking: "Oh how I wish it was all over..." haha.

Tommorow should be fun, I hope. xoxo.

It's Over, so Over

2008-12-03T07:43:00.000-08:00

IT....

IS....

OVER!!!!!

SPM is finally over! You will not believe how long I've waited for this day to arrive and it is finally here :D

Well, the accounts paper was different this year. Instead of the usual milikan tunggal for question 2, it was yuran and all the other sorts of yuran questions. Then there was also perkongsian which I was really careless with coz I didn't count the correct untung bersih :( The rest of the questions were alright and hopefully what I did was enough.

Economics was do-able but unfortunately I did not do as well as I had expected. I ran out of time and panicked so I don't even know whether what I wrote at the very last minute even made sense. Therefore, I'm really really hoping that the graph goes down in order for me to get an A1. Paper 1 was easy though and so far I only found one mistake.

Perdagangan today was also do-able. I managed to finish paper 2 this time, thank god. After paper 2 ended it was like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders and I felt so much lighter and I have not felt this way in 3 months, really. Paper 1 was do-able but the last few questions about agencies was a bitch so I tembak-ed my way through.

A new development today was that I tried to drive!! It all started when I wanted mints from Colin and Katt wanted to see his car. So we went down and hazrul, bryan and siew pun followed as well. Then the boys wanted to drive around and as I usually do, I grabbed the front seat. Although I probably don't think it was the best choice as no one trusted Colin's driving. HAHA. So everyone took turns driving except for bryan and katt. Siew Pun is one hell of a crazy driver trying to drift and all. Then it came to my turn. Here's how it went:

a) crawled over to the driver's seat.

b) buckled up

c) looked over at hazrul saying "okay, what do I do now?"

d) hazrul: "press the brake, release the hand brake and change the gear to drive"

e) did as I was told and the car started moving!

f) slowly pressing the accelerator

g) started to panic as I neared the corner and practically slammed on the brakes. In my defense, I did not know that I was supposed to slowly press the brake instead of pressing it hard. :p

h) as I slammed on the brakes everyone went: "OMG!!" hahahahha

i) me: sorry! I don't think I wanna drive anymore!

k) I slowly release the brakes and make a perfect turn!!

l) then I maintained the speed of the car at 20km/h :)

It was at that moment when I decided that when I learn to drive, I'm going to drive at a constant speed of 20-40km/h :) So that was my first experience of driving and I'm sorry, Colin, if I scared you :p

Then after perdagangan it was off to lunch with gee-ee, sa-ee and ling at Chef & Brew. The food there is not all that bad but the portions are HUGE. Dinner was at 7 so I had to go home to get ready. As I was getting ready, someone burst into my room and plopped onto my bed. Thank god I wasn't naked -.- Then she started talking to my penguin and playing with it and what not. Haha I really should've taken a video of that and screened it during her wedding or showed it to her children next time; "see, look at your crazy mummy" :)

my last memory is a vague figure of us as kids not knowing how it all ended but we strived and years later even as a silence falls between us, it is a comfortable one that makes us realise that blood IS thicker than water.

Pictures of the dinner will be posted up as soon as I get them from Katt :) Tomorrow's the briefing for mount k at 2pm. It's such an awkward time but at least I get to sleep in a little seeing as I am exhausted to the very last bone.

As an ending note, I am relieved.

counting down

2008-11-27T00:55:00.000-08:00

5 more agonizing days and 3 more excruciating subjects to go....

Okay, I may have been exaggerating a little there but it sure feels like it. sigh. I really envy those who are done with spm :( but..... very soon I will be too! Then it will be...

i) SHOPPING!!
ii) prom
iii) katt's birthday
iv) mount kinabalu
v) mamma mia
vi) movie marathons
vii) lazy afternoons with no worries

well, all in due time but I am worried about my economics and commerce paper. I don't think it's easy to get an A in those 2 subjects coz my teacher once told me that the graph isn't that low. But then again, I'm willing time to go faster even though I need all the time in the world before I sit for those papers.

silence

2008-11-24T08:41:00.000-08:00

Well so much for studying today.... I ended up doing nothing but have tuition and accounts work. Is it me or is time just flying by so fast?? :(

On the bright side, Ling's back and I cannot wait to join her on holiday break. 9 more days to go.

Anyway, below are some caricature drawings of Lisa and I and I when I was really young. Haha. I found them hilarious.

-Lisa and I when we were at Bukit Tinggi Resort-

-apparently that's me when I was around 6-ish?-

36 hours a day?

2008-11-23T07:26:00.000-08:00

There aren't enough hours in a day :(

A quarter of my brain is screaming ACCOUNTS! Another quarter is screaming ECONOMICS! The other quarter screaming COMMERCE! The last quarter screaming RELAX! sigh, it's a battle of thoughts every single damn day and let me tell you it is exhausting as hell.

At least I achieved something for pdgn today which was to finish one miserable chapter. Then it was off to PJ Hilton for Japanese food :) Unfortunately it was back to hitting the books. And now, it's another day gone, damn.

"she was running. her lungs were burning; a stitch had developed at her side. still she powered down the slippery slope, crashing through thick brush, jumping over rotting logs, careening over boulders. it was a suicidal pace. she could twist an ankle, plummet over a ledge, crash into a tree, or suffer things that would be much, much worse but she didn't slow down. she was still tearing forward at full throttle, trying to pick out the trail in the fading light. then, she came into a clearing in the woods and she realised, she was too late. exhausted, she slumped onto a nearby rock. the sound hit her all at once. the constant, building thrum. the deep vibrations of dozens upon dozens of rattlesnakes. she just sat there, perfectly frozen, while all around her the shadows of the rocks uncurled into the shapes of snakes."

call me crazy

2008-11-22T09:20:00.000-08:00

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I’m fine
Without you

Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it’s taken its toll on me
It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I’m fine
Without you

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it’s taken it's toll on me
It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
I’m fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather.

fields of daises

2008-11-19T22:13:00.000-08:00

7 subjects down and 4 more to go.

First of all, science was alright I guess. Paper 1 wasn't as hard as I expected it to be coz it was quite straight forward. However, I think I made one silly mistake and maybe another mistake coz the answers were really close. Anyway, Mr Sheat has my paper so hopefully he'll mark it for me :)

Add Math...... Let's just say I did not expect it to be tricky or to be of this standard but at least I could do the questions. I just need to pray for an A. Moral was a horrible, partly because I had my headache again so I'm not sure whether I wrote the correct nilai :(

Well, I have a 10 day break till accounts, economics and commerce but I'm feeling really really really lazy right now and that's the bad thing about long breaks - it makes you lazy. Nevertheless, I'm forcing myself to be hardworking or I know I'm going to regret not studying earlier.

So anyway, I'm kinda avoiding studying economics and commerce by burying myself in accounts but I'm gonna have to face it sooner or later. Hot stone massage again tomorrow! :D

sometimes it just takes a phone call to know how much i've truly missed you.

p.s. i'm really am happy to hear a smile on your face once again. :)

I hate this part

2008-11-16T06:55:00.000-08:00

4 papers down and 7 more to go. Tomorrow's science then add math and moral on tuesday. If you're wondering whether or not I'm ready for science tomorrow the answer is no. sigh.

Anyway, I'm not going to dwell on it and just try my best. The hall's going to be very empty tomorrow seeing as only commerce students will be there which means it might be colder than it already is. I think I should seriously consider bringing gloves in.

Tuition yesterday morning and this morning has left me lifeless coz I had to wake up at 8 in the morning (actually I kinda slept in till about 8.45 and class was at 9) heh. Yuen and teacher both expected me to be late anyway and I think that's why my classes are now in the evenings from now on which is good.

I've got a few pictures here to illustrate my past few days...

-a section in British India, One Utama. it somehow reminded me of India-

-I plopped myself on those pillows when no one was looking and earned some disapproving looks from my mum and aunty- :)

- the good luck cake our BM tuition teacher bought for us the day before SPM started-

- poor girl had an operation for swallowing a staple bullet-

- they arrived on friday :D -

- the family (except the white one is dead) -

So wish me luck for the next few papers :)

Feel This

2008-11-14T08:15:00.000-08:00

Hot stone massages are awesome :)

Anyway, 2 more days to science and I haven't touched my books yet. sigh. Plus, they're predicting that physics might come out as the compulsory questions and seeing as physics is my 'best' part of science, I'm dead. But no fear, I'm skipping out on following mummy to the orphanage tomorrow just so I could come home to study :)

I am somehow very relaxed when I still have 7 more subjects to go. Well, as I said, the minute Sejarah finished, as far as I was concerned SPM was over for me. haha which is not very good coz I've got to work hard for my other subjects as well.

Math was alright, although I spotted a few careless and absolutely ridiculous mistakes. Thank God I managed to change it at the very last minute before they collected the papers, literally. For example, I had half an hour to spare for paper 1 so I decided to see if my answers on my question paper tallied with my objective sheet. Guess what? I didn't shade one question. As for paper 2, I wrote that the enlargement had a scale factor of -2 which is didn't make sense and I managed to change 2 questions coz it was a chain effect thing. And all these mistakes were corrected right before the papers were collected. phew...

Now I'm praying for science, add math and moral :(

2008-11-12T05:08:00.000-08:00

SEJARAH IS OVER!!

It feels like a heavy weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't think I did that bad though for Sejarah, thank god. Apparently the A mark for last year was 60+ and the passing mark was 30+ so I'm really hoping that the graph will either drop or remain the same this year. BM was alright as well although I did panic for a while in the beginning coz I though I was going to run out of time like I did during trials. I finished on time though :)

Mummy booked hot stone massages on friday so I really really looking forward to that. Tomorrow will be math and then I'm done for the week :)

Testimonial Day

2008-10-31T10:48:00.000-07:00

Today marks the unofficial last day of school.

I've only been here for 2 years but it has been great :)

shadowed surfaces

2008-10-30T09:10:00.000-07:00

With exactly 11 more days to go to SPM and I'm finally doing my BM tuition homework.

What with this on the pile, add math, math and accounts as well, I barely have any time left for sejarah. Not to mention that is the most important subject I have to concentrate on seeing as I haven't been doing well in it for the past 2 years.

Anyway, tomorrow is Testimonial Day and it still hasn't really hit me yet that tomorrow's the last real day of school. Granted I'll be going back next week for chem but tomorrow will be the last REAL school day. Talk about being morbid. haha.

Everyone's been going around snapping pictures here and there as memories when we leave. Then it hit me, I didn't get to say a proper goodbye to my friends in KDU. But... we won't go there today :)

So I got good news today. The price for the iPod Touch is finally out and instead of paying the usual rm 1600, I got the price at rm 1215 :D The only thing is I don't know exactly when I'll be able to get it but it should be in a weeks time.

My head is filled with happy thoughts of how life would be after SPM and it looks good :)

waiting.

2008-10-20T07:51:00.000-07:00

Watch Journey to the Center of the Earth :)

Its funny, cute and exciting. Although there were some parts that were visibly computerized. Overall, in my opinion it's a good movie. There was a part in the movie where Sean (the 13 year old boy) got separated from his uncle and the mountain guide. He had to endure quite a few obstacles. At that point while I was watching that scene, I imagined myself in his position. The scenario was:

1. me having to jump from rock to rock to get over the other side. the catch is the rocks are suspended about 100 ft in the air by a magnetic field. my reaction would be jumping, then holding on for dear life then jumping again while swearing the whole way across.

2. me running away from a dinosaur who is right behind me. I would be screaming all the swear words I could possibly muster at that period of time and I might even invent some swear words of my own, out of sheer panic :)

Yep, that is what will probably happen to me if I were stuck in that situation. For those of you who haven't watched the show, watch it. However, you need to like these kind of stories in order to like this movie.

Tuition was canceled today thanks to Yuen so I have time to do an extra model test for accounts and add math. The days are passing unbelievably fast now and very soon.....

So apparently we have 3 days of training sessions before heading up to mount k. that should be fun *sarcasm* Oh and katt wants to take a cable car up to mount k and back down. hahahah.

womanizer

2008-10-19T08:29:00.000-07:00

"I will start studying tomorrow"

That has been a line that I've been saying since what.... the beginning of this year? Well one thing after another popped up and next thing I knew it's trials and voila! 3 weeks to SPM. Why am I such a procrastinator? why why why why why why why....

Well on the plus side I finally went to the gym after say.... 3 months? Went for the RPM class and nearly died but could still hang on so my stamina's not that far gone yet, thank god. So at least I know I won't faint halfway up to mount k next next month. Don't worry katt, I'll help you :)

Other than that I've just been stuck at home doing add math, math and accounts work. Haven't touched a page on sej which is stupid coz sej IS my weakest subject.

argh.

p.s. ling, the womanizer clip of chuck bass was good :)

watch it:

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=hm-ShIZAp0E

Decisions

2008-10-14T07:59:00.001-07:00

27 days to SPM...

Well, it's not really hard to forget when you have it written on the board by the one and only Cik Esha. What's worse is that she keeps repeating it in every single line of hers which is very very annoying.

Needless to say my sejarah teacher is very very very very very kind to give me an A in my forecast which would mean that I now have straight A's for my forecast :) It's so weird thinking that in a months time I won't be walking down school hallways anymore or following rules or wearing school uniforms or attending assembly. I'll no longer be in the comforts of school where everything is provided for you and the teachers push you to succeed. Sure, the lecturers in college and universities encourage you to excel as well but that's as far as they will go. No punishments, no nothing. I suppose this is a way of teaching us that it's time to grow up.

Then there's meeting new people which I am dreading. Don't get me wrong, I like meeting new people but I feel as if it was just yesterday that I transferred to Cempaka and now I'm leaving yet again. The transition period will be awkward at first but everyone learns to adapt.

I've yet to decide what subjects to take and whether I should just pursue psychology. When will I ever know which is best for me? How I wish I was back in primary... with no worries and just plain fun :)

Darkness

2008-10-08T08:18:00.000-07:00

"... the smell of rain fills my lungs and for a split second I forget the darkness that looms within me. The clouds start to move revealing the sun, the fishes in the pond resurface once again waiting for perhaps a kind soul to drop a piece of bread into the water, a squirrel appears in front of me with hopeful doe eyes that perhaps I 'd have some food with me. What a shame though, I feel nothing. What has become of me that I no longer notice the beauty and enchantment of the world? I sit, trying with every fiber of my brain to find answers but it's numb, I'm numb. Suddenly I'm watching myself from afar wondering who that girl is, sitting with a nonchalant look on her face. Then I realise that I wasn't lost nor was I sad. I was devastated."

Back to School

2008-10-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe how fast a week can pass, especially when it's the holidays. Tomorrow we'll all be back to school which means....

... endless hours of classes (I'm exaggerating)
... ever creative ways of sneaking food into class
... constant blabbing of gaming tactics by the boys
... gossiping sessions!
... more drill papers and teachers' constant reminder that SPM is just around
the corner

Well the holiday update is I didn't really do anything productive except drown in add math homework and watch my shows, all 13 of them :D

Mamma Mia was great but Pierce Brosnan can't sing :( as handsome and charming as he may be, the moment he starts singing as the movie critics said: we cringed. sigh, Colin Firth sang much much better although he turned out to be gay in the show. That was funny.

tagged :)

2008-09-28T06:36:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Rachel

1. The last person to tag you is?
rach :)

2. What's the relationship between you and him/her?
friend/girlfriend :)

3. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
1. smart
2. nice
3. pretty
4. understanding
5. kind

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.
tolerating my endless questions about sej, ekons, perdagangan and accounts :) and of course listening to my complains and problems.

5. The most memorable words that he/she said to you.
"my teacher said that I didn't have talent to play the piano but they later on found out that i needed glasses"

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
enjoy stealing her various designer handbags, watches and clothes :)

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
er... can't really imagine that happening.

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
not making me look stupid in exams :p

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is....
hahahah too smart for me!

10. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?...
relieve her from her heartache.

11. The overall impression to he/her is..
TOO smart and very nice

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
er.... i dunno...

13. The character for you for yourself is?
er... lazy?

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
procrastinator

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Rich.

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
piggy :)

17. Ten people to tag:
1. katt
2. san
3. ling
4. i-lyn
5. amelia
6. bryan
7. hazrul
8. steph
9. pkaye
10. kenneth

18. Who is number 2 having relationship with?
:)

19. Is number 3 a male or female?
definitely female.

20. If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH. how i'd like to see that happen :p

21. How about number 5 and number 8?
nope, not at all.

22. What is number 1 studying about?
games? hahaha.

23. When was the last you had a chat with them?
last night.

24. Is number 4 single?
nope, she's very much taken :)

25. Say something about number 2.
my alaskian accomplice.

anyway, I know this is long overdue but TRIALS ARE OVER! :D

I've been lazing about since friday and it feels gooooooooddddd :) although having bm tuition this morning at 9-12 and then later on add math tuition at 5-7 isn't exactly relaxing but I didn't really have a choice. Tomorrow will be another round of add math tuition at 3.30-5.30 then bm at 8-10. I've GOT to get a life.

yuen is not the person to watch any show with because she'll predict everything that's about to happen and the worse thing is she'll be right. haha we watched criminal minds and then 2 episodes of fringe. then she said: I feel like my vagina's falling off. *blank stare*

I need to see a therapist. No jokes, no sarcasm. I just need a bloody therapist. If I don't get one soon or some form of help soon I'll go crazy.

at least whenever you feel pain, it lets you know that you're alive

Chromosomes

2008-09-22T04:06:00.000-07:00

I think I should change my name to something similar to Yang Yang or Ying Ying or whatever because it seems that the dark rings under my eyes are enough to make me look like a panda.

Guess that's what you get for not sleeping at all. Plus, you get anxiety and highness all at once and that is not a pretty combination. I went to school today and for some utter reason I started laughing uncontrollably while Katt and Jas just stared at me as if I was mad. I honestly didn't feel tired. Till...... I came back from school and konked out on my bed :)

Science was well.. nothing can describe it. I'm pretty sure that I flunked my physics part and probably messed up my chem and bio part. Paper 2 wasn't so bad coz it was set by the Damansara teachers so we actually know what they were asking unlike the previous Science paper when we didn't know what on earth the question was about.

Another story that totally brightened my day:

A human male was one X chromosome and one Y chromosome while a human female has a pair of X chromosomes. We were asked to show the possibilities of children for a normal male and a colour blind female. So, as usual we all wrote XY(male)+XX(female). However... Min Hua wrote:

XX(female)+XX(female)

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. His family has lesbian parents!! HAHAHAHHAHA.

I wonder how Cik Zakiah will respond to that :)

p.s. 2 more days till trials are over!!

Sylvestor

2008-09-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

Sejarah was a b****.

Guess what? All the questions were from the adabi ramalan book that I have!! So you can imagine how much I'm kicking myself for not reading through it right?? I mean I knew that the 10 essays she gave us during the holidays were from that book but I didn't think that she'd set questions from there!! sigh.. I think it was destined for me not to have read that book :( well, thanks to DESTINY I'm going to fail sejarah. thanks very much.

Yesterday was simply not my day. To start the day, I only had 4 hours of sleep in 2 days. Then my bm paper was f***ed up. Then came sejarah and you can pretty much guess how that went. Then to top it off I had another fight with my mother. At the end of the day I was so tired that when I finally decided to sleep, my eyes were bloodshot.

What brightened my day was this story of a person I know: When he was young he got into a fight with Sylvestor (The cat from Tweety Bird). Apparently he started punching Sylvestor for no prior reason. Sylvestor got angry and pushed him (gently) then Sylvestor sat on him.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH :)

I haven't started studying science yet. Watched a bucnh of shows last night like: Friends, Anastacia, Because I Said So and Victoria Secret's Sexiest People. Today I woke up at 2 and practically did nothing. Great.

I think Mr Sheat's going to pull me aside again and ask me: Is there anything distracting you, Vanessa? Because if there is I can make it go away.

haha.

Bon Voyage

2008-09-18T03:03:00.000-07:00

I think any chance of me getting an A in perdagangan has just been crushed :(

Tomorrow's doomsday and I'm already falling asleep while studying sej probably coz I slept at 5 last night. Not to mention I need to read up on my facts for BM as well. If I don't do well in this exam I think he's going to increase the number of classes a week. argh!

Anyway, 'studying' in school was a complete waste of time. As usual, we didn't study. Instead we stoned and talked about stuff. Haha our 'perdagangan group'.

I swear I'm going to be so happy when tomorrow's over and I'll bet I'll sleep in till 2 in the afternoon on Saturday, not that I can afford to though coz I gotta study science and economics. Okay, scratch that. I'll be soooo happy when trials are finally over :D

And I'll be even happier when I get my iPod Touch :)

p.s. Lisa's off today. I'll miss her.

Alone

2008-09-16T03:53:00.000-07:00

... and at that moment, she knew what was wrong.
The draft of air. Very cold, very crisp, very outside air drifted down the stairwell.
It ruffled Nathan's fine brown hair. And it carried with it the unmistakable odor of death.

That paragraph gave me the creeps when I was reading 'Alone' by Lisa Gardner, especially the last line.

Anyway, accounts today was..... well.... I finished almost all the questions which is a good thing coz in all the previous exams I never manage to finish the rest of the questions all coz of one question which is the dokumen. However, this I did and I balanced on my first try too :D then came the other questions which was well.... let's just say I won't get full marks but I'll get a few here and there, which is better than nothing.

Tomorrow's a public holiday but not so much of a holiday for us though. Commerce is on thursday and as for the science students, they have bio. Then comes friday: Sejarah, the love of my life or as so my mum said.

I've decided to get the new iPod Touch which has...

i) more ways to play
ii) a sleek new design
iii) bulid-in speaker
iv) volume controls
v) longer battery life
vi) Rock 'n' Run with Nike+

... or as so the advertisement on the website says. It was launched today in BV with 8GB at rm900+, 16 GB at rm12oo+ and 32 GB rm1600+. I'll admit though that the nano colours are really pretty but I don't really see myself loving it. So the safest bet would be the Touch :)

alright, I'm gonna be lazy for a while and read :)

p.s. see, this is why they shouldn't have holiday breaks in between. it makes me lazy :(

stress kills

2008-09-15T07:52:00.000-07:00

One down, six more to go. Feels like a million miles away though :(

Thank God Wednesday is a public holiday.

Anyway, having examinations in the hall is really weird. I mean it's so weird being in such a vast place. I swear, Cik Esha is damn annoying. This was what happened: We were down to the last 10 minutes of English Paper 1 and I was still writing my novel part. Suddenly Cik Esha started talking about some nonsense thing which had no relation whatsoever with the paper and which can be announced later on. Instead she continued blabbling and my mind could not concentrate at all. I could tell a few other people were annoyed too coz there were shushing noises.

And just as you think she stopped talking and your mind goes back into focus, she starts again. It's so bloody annoying. Well, me being the easily irritated girl I am, told her off.

Me: Cikgu, boleh senyap tak? Saya tak boleh concentrate la.
Cik Esha: *stunned* Ya, okay la. Buat.

My moment of peace only lasted 5 minutes coz then she started talking AGAIN. Luckily I was done or I would've stranggled her.

To make things worse my back is acting up again and it hurts like f***. I think it only acts up when I'm all stressed out, which is pretty much all the time now.

accounts..............

p.s. both my articles are up in the school website!! :D proudest moment ever, next to cheer of course :)

life as we know it

2008-09-14T06:49:00.000-07:00

I should really, REALLY be studying right now. But I decided to blog a little first :)

Lisa's farewell lunch was today and surprisingly enough after sleeping at 4 in the morning, I was able to wake up at 10 am the same morning. Haha. We were still late anyway. So when we got there amongst all the hugs and 'angpows' given to Lisa, she started tearing and so did I. Both of us had to escape to the ladies' room before our eyeliner started to run. I am proud of what I wrote in her card though :)

After lunch I decided that even if I were to go home I wouldn't be able to concentrate on studying so I might as well spend more time with Lisa before she leaves this Thursday. We all headed to BV2 for Haagen Daz ice-cream and then later proceeded to window shopping where Lisa and I tried on different jackets just for the fun of it.

-I love this red one!-

"There is a tide in the affairs of men.
Which, taken at the flood, leads on to fortune;
Omitted, all the voyage of their life
Is bound up in sorrows and miseries.
On such a full sea are we now afloat,
and we must take the current when it serves,
Or lose our ventures."

-Willam Shakespeare-

Trials

2008-09-12T06:25:00.000-07:00

Trials are in 2 days and I am not prepared.

Anyway, I'm stealing a few minutes from my study time to blog. School is getting crazy, teachers are loading us with lots and lots of homework everyday. Not to mention my Economics and Commerce teacher who expects us to be robots and finish her work, plus other subjects AND study for the upcoming examinations. Not forgetting my pile of tuition homework.

Last week before Sa-Ee and Sa Tiao went off to China, we had dinner at this restaurant in klang. I don't know what came over us that we ended up ordering 10 dishes. Here it is:

-see the dishes behind too?-

Somehow we managed to finish everything. Haha.

Lisa's farewell lunch is on Sunday so after school I bought a card and a round penguin for her :)

We were only supposed to get the card and a small gift then head back home so that I could study but as usual we got sidetracked. I finally convinced mummy to get straightening thongs for me! :D now I don't have to keep straightening my hair every year and complaining every single year that it's too flat.

Okay, okay. Back to studying.

fiction

2008-09-05T09:45:00.000-07:00

Chicken with Peaches! :D

So I ventured into cooking something more complicated and it was a success! Although I don't think I'll be cooking anytime soon coz trials are a week away and I'm just about screwed for it.

...

2008-09-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

So the premiere of the form 5 commerce consumeRights campaign was yesterday and it wasn't that bad :)

bookmark made by amy :)

I am proud to say that I have actually made progress in my studying, not much but it's still something.

and now, I need a big bucket to hold my tears...

Leyton :)

2008-09-02T03:20:00.000-07:00

And the mosquitos are back.

ARGH! :(

So today we asked Mr Avinash about our add math paper and apparently I passed. Whether it's a good pass or a bad pass, I don't know. sigh. Q got 67 for his accounts, it's good for a first time :)

PEYTON & LUCAS!! :D

Currently watching OTH which I just downloaded and I am soooooo happyyyyyy!! *cloud nine*

Set me free

2008-09-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

So here's the thing.

On friday, when mum and I were at bsc we saw someone we knew. Well actually mum noticed her because she thought that the pram was cute, but that is not the point. Back to the subject, we didn't go to A's full moon party because my tuition had dragged on and I knew I wasn't allowed to go anyway but my dad went. So as usual something has to be given. Back to bsc, mum called dad to ask him whether he gave M anything for the baby shower. I couldn't exactly hear what he was saying but my mum started mentioning about 10g or something of that sort.

Later when I asked her what did dad give, my mum said gold.

WHAT THE FUCK??

My mum and I don't even fucking get gold. Granted we get other stuff but hell, I want gold too! and wait, I'm not totally insane. This is the side of the family that practically KILLED my parent's marriage mind you and he's giving them GOLD?? When my eyes grew wide at that, my mum said she's not sure and that my dad said he didn't get them anything.

I do not believe him. There is no freaking way in hell that he won't get his precious niece's daughter anything, believe me.

He has this thing where with my mum and I, he is sarcastic and when we ask him questions he gives us stupid answers but when anyone from his side of the family asks him anything he'll give a full detailed thesis on the topic. My mum's sick of it and sometimes I get so angry that I just don't bother asking anymore. Hell, I don't even bother talking. Why talk? I'll just a idiotic answer anyway.

Done ranting. I need to study. Why can't I study?

Merdeka

2008-08-30T07:49:00.000-07:00

I just realised that my last post was on August 13. I guess I just didn't feel the urgency to blog. Well, first of all it's 12 midnight so Happy Merdeka :)

Every little thing sets me off these days and it's frustrating because I used to be able to handle things better than this. When something gets to me, my heart starts beating faster, I can feel something boiling up in me and then BAM! I explode. Is it the stress? but I don't really feel stressed out. I don't know but if this doesn't stop I'm going to be in deep s***.

After school yesterday I had tea with Katt and her two sisters. They are really funny and even funnier with Katt. Haha. Plus, I can finally differentiate between Lilian and Michelle. Katt even had to test me in school before meeting up with them :p

Anyway, we went to Ms Read at BV2 to have desserts and gossip about all sorts of things. I swear, it was good fun :) Plus, I got to know what law was like in general coming from 2 law students. I felt bad though that they paid the bill so I'll just have to repay the kindness by having another tea time session only this time, on me :D

Trials are in 2 weeks and I havent's started studying. Way to go, Vanessa! sigh. Maybe I should've gone to science after all so that the studious environment will motivate me to study harder instead of slacking off. Then again, I love commerce :)

Oh yes, I finally sat for a realy add math exam on tuesday. It was alright I guess. I mean it wasn't exactly the same format as I was used to but I could do most of it. Now I just need to see if I made any careless mistakes or anything of that sort because I am prone to doing that.

Mr Ramesh wants saturday BM classes now before my trials and I agreed. sigh. I know, stupid stupid stupid thing to do but I didn't really have a choice coz I secretly know that it's good for me.

On a lighter note, last weekend Lisa and I stayed at Renaissance coz mummy had a 2 night complimentary stay there. Can you believe I actually woke up at 8 to go swimming?? I know, it's a miracle. We went to Pavilion with Lisa's parents, my parents and Ling's parents including their friend Aunty Vicky. There, Lisa and I had the awesomest sale! 70% off all ladies wear at Giordano Concept Store. It's not like the ordinary Giordano store and the offer was to die for.

Guess how long we spent in the fitting room? From around 9.30 till 10.30. Haha! Well, let's just say we were trying on a lot of clothes :)

Armani top but the front was plain and a little weird.

Jian Feng :)

2008-08-16T23:28:00.000-07:00

Congratulations to :

i) Lisa - for scoring straight A's in her A-Levels and also 100% for 3 papers!
ii) Ling - for scoring 98% in her specialist maths!

I swear, I think my family's weird. Plus, there's more pressure to score good grades *sigh* The holidays are here but it somehow doesn't feel like the holidays. It feels so gloomy because I know that SPM is nearing the corner. I don't remember feeling this way during PMR. I wonder why....

Anyway, had 3 hours of BM this morning which was BAD. We ate in class anyway and drove over to 7 eleven to buy some food. After school met up with Sa ee and her aussie friend at Midvalley where I managed to convince mummy to let me cancel tuition so that I can eat Sang Ha Mein tonight :D (big prawn mee)

We went to Yuen's house for a while and I ended up playing with the baby. He's so CUTE! and FAT for a 2 month old baby. He can't focus properly so he just stares into oblivion but trust me he loves to stare. I can just imagine him at around 4 years old, staring at the tv with Yuen and just like Yuen, scary.

Freedom Writers is cool and August Rush is amazing! :D

Anyway, some overdue pictures: :)

Failed attempts

2008-08-13T08:55:00.000-07:00

My attempt to study failed due to many distractions and lack of will power. Clearly, I need to get rid of my laptop and my computer. sigh...

Not to mention I haven't done my BM tuition homework. I am so dead.

Maybe I'll have better luck studying tomorrow? :)

yeah right...

Losing it

2008-08-12T02:55:00.000-07:00

kill me.

Have you ever immersed yourself in water, shut your eyes, not breathe and just drift off?

I have.

It's a calm and eerie feeling but peaceful. I can feel myself dangerously headed towards that direction but on the other hand I have my responsible side pulling me in the other direction, reminding me of my responsibilities, life, goals, parents and friends etc.

For the first time in 1 and a half years I felt myself, the new and controlled-self, slowly slipping away and so today at approximately 6.15 pm, I lost myself.

cried like I never had,
screamed like I never had,
punched like I never had,
wondered like I never had,
hated like I never had,
loved like I never had.

I'm tired. I'm tired of pretending that everything's peachy sweet when it's not. I've been pretending so much that I didn't even realise that what was peachy sweet was so bitter that nothing could save it anymore. My room is my sanctuary from the coldness and bitterness that I get outside.

I need to get a grip.

On a lighter note, the link for the siri 6/2009 National Service came up on the website today. Naturally Naveen came rushing in during accounts (poor teacher, I think he's given up on us)
inform us that both Siew Pun and Yee Keat got chosen for NS. The whole class, and I mean WHOLE class apologized to Encik Zainuddin and ran to the tutorial class to check for our IC numbers.

One by one we all checked our IC numbers. Katt, Jas, Haz, Bryan, Yee Keat and Siew Pun got chosen from our class. It's so surprising that so many people from just our class got chosen. As for Science 1 and 2 quite a few got chosen as well. But I'm sure most of them will be able to defer :)

p.s. thank god I didn't get chosen.

i've no more tears...

Ying and Yang

2008-08-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

Why do we subject ourselves to this? Why be emotionally blackmailed into feeling this s***? As I sit here listening to what she has to say and as my heart breaks for her I am secretly cursing the dominant sex. I mean, who gives them the right to do this?? Who the the hell do they think they are?? God created both sexes for a reason, it's a ying and yang thing not a cat and mouse thing.

Anyway, weekend update is preeeetttyyyyy much zilch. I can't believe the weekend has passed so fast and it's passing faster and faster each week and very soon it'll be the weekend before the start of SPM! *panic*

okay bimbotic moment gone.

study.......... study............. study............

against everything

2008-08-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

It's always "Why do YOU have to always do this?" or "Why do YOU always get angry over small things like this?" or whatever the hell statement that involves me being the psycho one. Do you even get why or are you too fixated on blaming me that you don't even fucking care. And when I say that you're blaming me, no you say you're just pointing it out. IT'S THE FUCKING SAME THING!

Then it's the "Where's the disc??" or "Put it back!" or "Don't touch my things!". If you don't fucking want us to touch your things then why bring it back from your friends?? Why not just hide it and smuggle it?? You mean to say that just cause they gave it to YOU it's out of bounds to us?? That we can't watch it as well. Then don't fucking ask us to burn or keep movies for you when you want them!

Do you think I'm a fucking 6 year old that I don't know when my exams are coming?? I don't even think that you've ever had a childhood because you claim to know what it's all about but you don't show it. Just leave me the fuck alone, I'll score the A's for you so I can leave and never look back.

Infestation

2008-07-30T08:59:00.000-07:00

Stupid f***ing mosquitos!

argh!! Can you believe that I have 7 mosquito bites on one arm only?? So I'm all out to kill the mosquitos now :D

To make things worse, my favourite dancer, Will got cut from So You Think You Can Dance :(

On top of that, I've got the Australian Westpac examination tomorrow and the paper is so difficult. Well, actually it's not that difficult but it requires you to think logically and out of the box coz the questions aren't straight forward like our Malaysian exams. Worse comes to worse, I'll just use my shooting skills :)

29th July

2008-07-29T09:10:00.000-07:00

BIG SPLASH!

and of course...

one year :)

p.s. I saved Katt's life today :p

Sleep

2008-07-19T07:51:00.000-07:00

BM was b****. Instead of taking 2 hours and 15 minutes to do my paper 1, I took 3 hours. Why? Because there were constant distractions all around and if there's one thing I can't multi-task with, it's writing a karangan in noisy surroundings. What's worse is I have BM AGAIN tomorrow morning. Bloody hell, I need to sleep. Argh!!!

It's Andrea's full moon tomorrow as well but whether we're going or not, it's still undecided. I haven't seen Brandon since the day he was born and hey, I'm his aunty.

I just got back from the airport after sending Ling off, Pik Kaye was there too and I think Shermaine took the same flight home. All going back to Adelaide on the same flight. Haha.

I need to sleep. Ughhhh!!!

Beautiful

2008-07-17T06:11:00.001-07:00

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been pretty tired and well let's just say down.

Friday was Jasmine's birthday celebration with Katt and I at Cava. We were so tired at the end of the day I think we were all relieved to go home. Well, the night didn't end for me yet coz Ling and Lisa came over. We had fun with Singstar although I think the neighbours were at the verge of complaining about our screeching at 2 am in the morning. It was fun though coz there was a rap meter and pitch meter. Ling thrashed me in Promiscuous Girl :(

Saturday morning was a holy morning coz we woke up at 9 to go to the Brickfields Temple to help serve food to the monks. At about 11 something we headed to Gardens for lunch where we had Peking Duck :D and then HOME!

We finished all the Singstar discs and went crazy with the party programs like passing the mike, duet, medley and others. Then the mahjong began but we had to teach Ling first before we started the marathon which the crazy girl ended up thrashing Lisa and I. It's always the case where you teach someone how to play a game and they end up thrashing you in it. Anyway, we had rm 107 worth of pizzas for dinner. HAHA. 2 large and 1 regular (no, we couldn't finish it). Then we played mahjong till 5 in the morning and even at that time Lisa and Ling couldn't sleep coz they ate at 4 in the morning. I fell asleep anyway and woke up at 2 in the afternoon the next day. I don't know how Ling managed to wake up earlier than us but I think it's coz she was hungry :p hehe.

Monday was bad, I had a horrible migrain and thank god there wasn't any tuition or I would've slept in front of him. Classes in school nowadays are useless coz Pn Kaniya ain't here no more, I dunno why, and Pn Nor is having eye surgery I think. So basically I don't have Perdagangan, Economics, Moral and Sejarah classes anymore. Makes me feel quite useless though.

I got my top tenth percentile and bronze award on Wednesday but it still wasn't a good day.

You think I get these awards for myself? That I don't want to make you proud?? But every time I try, you always put me down even though you say you don't because you swear at me. I'm tired, I'm just waiting to leave. It's not as easy as you think it is, it can't just happen overnight and I'm tired of explaining that to you. If the other half can encourage me without shouts or humiliation why can't you? Many people ask me why I wanna go far away or leave straight after. I myself don't know why but maybe this is part of the reason.

Okay, emo-ness gone. I've got pictures! But I'm too lazy to upload it. Some other time, maybe.

so beautiful...

Happy Birthday Fei Mao :)

2008-07-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

I learned something today.

Iron Man can fly!

hahahhahah.

Anyway, behold the stack of workbooks I have to do before SPM:

Front view

Side view

Yuen's pile:

Front view

Top view

Yuen's pile isn't that high coz some of her books are with teacher. Anyway, I have a feeling that pile is going to get higher and higher as time goes nearer to SPM.

Happy Birthday, Jas, my fei mao! :D

be strong and I will always be there for you :) xoxo

Mooks

2008-07-07T08:43:00.000-07:00

Ling's back!

All 3 families met up for dim sum at Mariott Hotel, KL, for lunch. It's funny how the last time I remembered having a meal with all 3 families was when we were all very young. Dim sum was alright as I'm not a very big fan of it and also because my stomach was being a bitch after every time I eat so basically I just gave up eating.

Later we proceeded to Pavilion where we all ended up acting like jakuns coz Ling wanted to take pictures to show her friends that we don't live in tree tops.

SHOPPING! was on the agenda of the day.

What we bought?

Lisa bought undies from topshop (cute ones), a Zara top and a Mook's stuff toy.

Ling bought undies from topshop for her friends back in Adelaide, Digi number and a Mook's stuff toy.

I bought jeans and a top from Zara and a Mook's stuff toy.

The stuff toys from Mook's is according to our horoscopes so it's supposed to portray our characters :)

Ling:

Charco
- can set things ablaze with a snap of his fingers, but he only does so when he is furious.

So suits Ling and naturally it was black because she LOVES black.

Lisa:

Ninja
- Ninja can move as fast as lightning. One second he's there and the next... *poof*... he's gone!

eeerrrr..... does not suit Lisa because she can't even move as fast as a turtle. HAHAHAHHA!

Me:

Pinky Pirate
- A descendant of an infamous pirate, Pinkie Pirate has an exceptional sense of direction. He inherited a magical wooden sword that will take you wherever his heart desires.

Suit me? No? It's funny how it's a cute creature but it has a bad side by being a pirate :p

Rakuzen for dinner was great. As usual I was stuffed after dinner but I'm sure I burnt it off when I walked from one end of the carpark to the other end of the carpark and then back again. All because daddy forgot where he parked the car. I was wearing long sleeves and I was in heels. It wasn't exactly fun and my feet all hurt now :(

Came down with the flu today so I think I need more rest.

argh!

2008-07-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

emo.... emo.... emo.... EMO...........

why do you always have to complicate my life by coming back into it??

go away...

Tortillas

2008-06-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

I don't get why I've been having constant headaches when I get sufficient amount of sleep everyday.... well, at least I think that it's sufficient.

Anyway, Penang was HOT.

No, I do not mean it in the oh-so-beautiful-and-amazing-place but I mean it in the oh-my-god-I'm-about-to-get-a-heat-stroke.

The 20 year old but still looks brand new car of my grandmother's didn't exactly help the situation because apparently the air conditioning ran out of gas. So basically, we sat in a car that had hot-con. Not funny. Mummy was complaining about how uncomfortable the bed was and that Daddy takes up 3/4 of the bed. Thank Goodness I have a bed of my own but it still isn't the best bed in the world.

Sa Ee and Sa Tiao stayed at the Gurney Hotel in a studio suite. One look at it and Mummy and I decided that on our next trip up to Penang, we're difinitely checking ourselves into a hotel. Plus, the spa rates were to die for :)

When in Penang, we EAT. And that was what we did. Friday night fly up, eat supper (not me, my parents), Saturday afternoon eat, evening go to the temple, dinner eat again. Sunday afternoon eat again, evening fly home.

eat, eat, eat...

I suddenly had the craving for the tortilla wrap Sa Ee taught Lisa and I to make so this Friday I am cooking dinner :) most probably for my mum and I only coz my dad doesnt each such things.

roses are meant to be red,
violets are meant to be blue.

Monthly Tests Week

2008-06-25T03:21:00.000-07:00

it's funny how I have so much to blog during exam periods but I have almost nothing to say when I don't have exams. This is BAD.

Anyway, last night I got angry over a comment made but I won't say anything. Let's just say some people are very naive and should watch what they say to avoid getting into fights.

Monthly tests are this week and I'm so not prepared. Monthly tests for tomorrow:

a) Perdagangan
b) BM
c) Chemistry (maybe)
d) Physics (maybe)
e) Accounts

sigh... So many.

But on the bright side, I'll be going up to penang this weekend :) for grandma's birthday. Sa ee and Sa tiao are going up as well. I want to eat laksa :)

From Kungfu Panda:

yesterday was the past,
tomorrow is a mystery,
today is a gift,
and that's why it's called the PRESENT!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA :D

Roses

2008-06-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

Well, I must've been tired this morning coz I slept right through till 1 pm without even knowing it. Usually I'd wake up at around 10 something then fall back to sleep again but this time I didn't. I slept through till my dad came to tell me that he was going out for lunch and that he'll come back at around 2.30 pm to take me out.

After eating i.nstant noodles for lunch, my dad took me to sunway pyramid to get the sony photo printer...

Then we had to rush home to get ready for dinner with Aunty Chen and her family coz Siao Haln was back from Singapore. As I expected, it was awkward. I mean I haven't spoken to her since what..... std 1? Although our mums kept in touch but we never really did. Maybe we did in primary off and on but I don't really remember it. So yeah, it was awkward. I couldn't text either coz I didn't want to seem rude so I just stoned.

Anyway, I just printed out pictures of Lisa and I and it was pretty! :D

lost in this world...

Lost

2008-06-20T06:58:00.001-07:00

I've concluded that I cannot gamble coz I absolutely have no luck at all.

School was boring so how did katt, siew pun and I entertain ourselves?

BINGO!

Yes, by playing bingo. Haha. Katt kept on winning, I won only 4 games and siew pun got fed up of katt who kept on winning so he went of to play World of Warcraft.

After school mummy came to pick me up with Aunty Chris and ther girls. Sueyi came back from Canada and it was great to talk to her :)

I've got add math homework to do and I should really start studying. sigh....

when the lights go down,
that's where I'll be found...

Bye Bye

2008-06-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

I wonder where you are tonight,
no answer on the telephone.
till now I've always gone by on my own,
I never really cared until I met you.
and now it chills me to the bone.

The migraine seeped back into my head this afternoon and make no mistake, it hurts like shit.

Tuition was a blast *sarcasm*

Pissed off...

Worried...

Screw it, I'm going to bed.

Happy Father's Day

2008-06-16T02:29:00.000-07:00

Update of the weekend:

After great contemplation, I have finally bought my long awaited birthday gift from my parents.

A Sony Ericsson Handphone (W910)

Yes, I realize that this isn't the phone that I've been mentioning in my previous posts but this phone has the exact same features as the W760, which by the way is not out yet (bloody internet gave me the wrong information), except for some things.

W760 = i) has GPS navigator
ii) camera is 3.2 mega pixels
iii) not able to make video calls

W910 = i) does not have GPS navigator
ii) camera is 2.0 mega pixels
iii) able to make video calls

I think I spent nearly an hour just deciding whether or not I should wait or to get this phone and I had to call my mum to get her advice. Finally, I decided to get this phone because...

a) How often will I use the GPS navigator??

b) I have a 10 mega pixel camera.

c) This phone is much prettier :)

d) Plus, the guy at the Sony Ericsson shop threw in the external GPS navigator for free :p

Then, came the problem of choosing the colour. There were 3 colours:

1) red

2) black

3) bronze

I liked both the red and bronze but the catch was that if the phone were to get scratched, it would be more visible on the bronze colour than on the red colour. Plus, the phone that is bronze in colour is local which means it's not original and not from Sony Ericsson. So, I settled for red coz it's sexy and striking :)

Today in school, I found myself missing my phone. What the hell is wrong with me??

Father's Day was yesterday. Everyone was out to dinner with their dads. I went to Rakuzen. Katt and Kenneth were at the same restaurant, in tables RIGHT next to each other. HAHAHAHHA :)

I've finished watching CSI which would mean I've got no more shows to watch :( but Quang has Chuck for me :D

p.s. I think I've been watching too much CSI and reading too much murder stories. Last night, I dreamt that I was being pursued by a serial killer and ended up not being able to sleep.

Friday the 13th

2008-06-13T07:06:00.002-07:00

First and foremost, I would like to express my condolences to the Lai family for their loss.

This morning, Cheras called my mum to inform her that the oral test had been pushed to 11 when it was originally at 1. So, my mum woke me up at 9.30 then we rushed to Cheras. My oral test was basically f***ed up because I froze at my question and I hesitated a lot. This was exactly what I was afraid of and sure enough, I did.

After Cheras, we went to Aunty Chris's place for lunch and Sze has a HEDGEHOG! He's so adorable! I mean I always knew that she loved hedgehogs from all the toy hedgehogs she has but she got a real hedgehog for her birthday.

Sze let him out of his cage and he ran under the couch which caused a major havoc in the house coz he was being squashed by the couch. Haha. So we had to lift the couch up and drag him out. So cute :)

Mummy left me there with Sze and Syu while she sent Aunty Chris to UH. While waiting we watched What Happens in Vegas starring Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz, not a bad show actually. Then mummy came back and we went to the optical shop where I bought another pair of spectacles, my contact lenses, mummy bought sunglasses and a 2 pairs of spectacles. All in all, it cost RM 4878. Haha.

Tomorrow, daddy's taking me to Lowyat to look for my phone. Hopefully, I'll be able to buy it along with my photo printer and hard drive.

Ironically, today's Friday the 13th.

Alone

2008-06-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

The instability of my internet connection is really starting to tick me off.

Anyway, I had my Cambridge English Exam today in Cheras. Paper 1, 2 and 3 was alright but paper 4 was a b****. It was a listening test so we had to listen to a few conversations, interviews and such to answer the questions. The British accent wasn't that strong but the problem was that they were talking way too fast. Plus, the classroom we were in had an echo so I had to strain my ears to listen to what they were saying. I'll be lucky if I pass that paper. Well, tomorrow I have my last paper which is an interview which lasts for 1 and a half hours. Trying not to get nervous here. I keep thinking that I should read the dictionary or something to improve my vocabulary.

On other issues, the rising of the prices of petrol has been a common issue in everyone's daily conversations nowadays. Ways to overcome it?

i) start taking public transport - HAH! Like I'm going to wake up at 5.30 every morning to take the bus to school.

ii) reduce the usage of air-con in the car - Sure, we'll just have people walking about with horrible body odour.

iii) abstain from sudden breaks - we'll probably have a 10 car pile up on the road. Good way to reduce the rate of road accidents.

iv) car pooling - how many people can you fit in a kancil? Plus, the issue about seat belts...

In conclusion, we need petrol.

That was random...

Okay, back to math.

MI-5

2008-06-09T04:26:00.000-07:00

Ughhh... I hate days like these when you just wanna stay home but can't because you have to go for tuition.

Well, school was a blast. We got back most of our marks and the only subjects that are left are Moral, Sejarah( I don't even wanna know what my results are) and Accounts.

Results for Mid Year Examinations:

B.M = 70% (3B)
English = 85% (1A)
Maths = 84% (1A)
EST = 89% (1A)
Ekonomi = 80% (1A)
Perdagangan = 90% (1A)
Science = 70% (3B)

It isn't that bad except for my B.M. and Science. I can't believe I got so low for science and I didn't exactly do good for the chemistry part either so I won't be surprised if Mr Sheat drops subtle hints in class. Sigh... B.M. however, I really wanted to get an 1A but because I still stubbornly refuse to read my novel, my paper 2 kinda pulled my marks down or else I could've gotten higher marks. Don't even get me started on Sejarah which I think will ruin my total results.

Whooooooo.... Alright, enough about exams.

Currently watching:

MI-5

I don't know, Uncle HM says it's nice so what the heck :)

Back to school

2008-06-08T05:36:00.000-07:00

The summary of my holidays (26th May - 8th June):

CSI MARATHON!!!

Yep, I'm hooked onto CSI right now. I've been watching CSI Miami & New York although I prefer CSI Miami but Horatio has the LAMEST one liners and he always says it after he puts on his sunglasses. Hahahaha. Plus, if you look at his posture closely, it's the shape of an ostrich :)

Of course, I went shopping during the holidays :) I went for the Robinson's pre-sale, bought some things and when nothing interested me, I went around trying the most ridiculous shoes. Come to think of it, some of them actually look good when worn. While it is a headache going shopping with the 3 sisters, Lisa and I managed to survive it and it was fun :)

Back to school tomorrow and I'm not exactly looking forward to it. Lisa and I had a fantasy of just staying home to ROT. Right now, that's exactly what I want to do.

Back to school = i) Exam results
ii) Homework
iii) Endless hours of classes

Not a whole lot of fun...

The Sony Ericsson W760 has a MTV version which has a more colourful casing and looks really funky. I want it BUT I think it's only sold in Italy :( I was thinking of getting Aunty Maggie to get it for me the next time she goes to Italy but that may be months from now and no. 1, I can't wait that long and mummy wants her phone back and no. 2, it may be a limited edition phone so by the time Aunty Maggie goes to Italy, the phone might not be available anymore. sigh... Here's the comparision:

compared to.....

So much difference but of course if I can't get the MTV version, I'm still getting the normal one coz the phone's still awesome :)

feel so nonchalant,
numb,
disconnected.
It's as if I've become cold and heartless...
why?

525600 minutes

2008-05-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

It's the holidays but I somehow don't feel as if it is the holidays. I think I know why...

It's because I STILL have to wake up at 6.30 in the morning to go to school!

Why?

For extra classes.

Well, I give up coz I'm not going tomorrow :)

Daddy's birthday was yesterday and guess what? Mr Sheat's birthday is today. HAHA. Now I'll be able to remember Mr Sheats birthday :)

Anyway, Daddy's birthday dinner was at One World. We ate at the chinese restaurant, naturally and had lots and lots of PORK. It's Daddy's day :)

Plus, I had the opportunity to wear my new dress from MNG so hey, I'm not complaining. Later, we went to the coffeehouse for some coffee and wine. Others had red wine from the bottle whereas I had Chardonnay, amongst other things. It was a good night, with the whole family together :)

Today I wasted my time in school because I did nothing except my moral project which I can easily do in the comforts of my home. I had lunch at Hartamas Plaza while Mummy did her grocery shopping then had tuition at 4.15. Trigonometry is horrible, it killed my brains.

I seriously need a new phone. I might have been exaggerating about it the last time but this time I'm serious. San called and we were talking on the phone for less than hour and my battery died, even with a full bar! It's rebelling against me :( On the other hand, I'm glad San's sounding better. Sure, she'll have her good days and bad days but it's getting better. Didn't I tell you that? :)

Pictures...

We were trying to form a height tower but you can't really see it properly.

Happy Birthday, Daddy.

Madness

2008-05-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

Today was exhausting and it turned out to be a very satisfying day :)

Got up at 10.30 to get ready for lunch with Yuen and her family at Shangri La Hotel. Mummy was rushing me like mad, I was so sure I forgot something but luckily I didn't. When we got to the restaurant, it seemed that mummy heard the time wrongly and we were there HALF AN HOUR early. Great.

Lunch was dim sum, it was quite good although I'm not a fan of dim sum. At around 3 something we went to KLCC for a but of shopping where I bought 2 pairs of really cute shorts from Roxy. Then of course when out with the Low sisters you must definitely go to the nearest bookstore. In this case it was Kinokuniya, their favourite place. I bought a thriller/mystery book which Yuen recommended. I'm just gonna borrow the rest of the series from her :) I also bought myself a sudoku puzzle book. Yep, I'm turning into a geek.

Then we went to Braun Buffel to get a wallet for daddy and at the same time, mummy ended up buying a rm 700+ handbag. Wait till daddy hears that :p

Mummy and I hopped to Pavilion after that to meet up with Gee-ee, Gee-tiao and Lisa after their movie. They watched Indiana Jones and according to Gee-ee, it wasn't very good. Quang says it was though. So, I dunno who to believe.

Before leaving Pavilion for dinner, I begged them to let me go to MNG and I'm glad I did coz there, I bought the cutest dress ever :D and a stylish white office kinda top. I am so satisfied today :) :) :)

Now, my feet hurt like shit because I've been walking around in my 3 inch heels all day. Smart, Vanessa, very smart.

SOS

2008-05-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

The holidays have started! Which means.... DVD marathon!

I've already started with Escape from Huang Shi

... followed by An Empress and her Warriors.

I know, weird choice of movies but Escape from Huang Shi was pretty good. It's a true story about a British guy who sneaked into China when China was conquered by Japan. It showed how cruel the Japanese were and how the British guy ended up helping 60 orphans shift to a safer place along the Silk Road. What the Japanese soldiers did to the Chinese were horrible, one of it was making all of them line up in a row and the soldiers would shoot all of them to death.

An Empress and her Warriors was alright I guess. I would've enjoyed watching it more if the damn subtitles were correct. For those of you who know mandarin, the words being said was 'fei er' which is actually the name of the child but the subtitles were literally translating word for word resulting in...

fei=flying

er=son

fei+er=flying son

The subtitles were translating like that throughout the whole movie so you can imagine how screwed up my understanding was.

Then I watched Over Her Dead Body

And now I'm watching Cleaner

So I basically spent my day watching DVDs :)

Yesterday was Math Olympiad, PA performance and Prize Giving Ceremony. Harimau got 2nd for Math Olympiad which Quang didn't like very much but he won best participant. I'm so proud of you baby :)

After school I had Cambridge lessons and I got 27/30 for my essay! I can't believe it but I did! :D I really hope I'll be able to produce and essay that good on the day itself coz then it'll help pull my marks up.

Daddy and I went to Oriental Pavilion in PJ to meet up with Gee ee, Gee tiao, Lisa and Mummy for dinner. So much for worrying about not going shopping..... My mummy got me a Kipling handbag, Burberry perfume and Body Shop products! :D

I love the box :)

Later on that night I watched The Covenant.

Quang said that it was a cool movie so I thought it'll be something like Jumper but how wrong I was. It was nothing like Jumper, it was scary and what made it worse was that I watched it at 12 midnight.

I woke up at 2 today, looks like I'm back to my old self. Thank god :)

I'm having lunch at Shang with Yuen tomorrow and maybe this time I'll come back with pictures :)

I gave my all for you and now my heart's in two...

Lifeless

2008-05-22T10:33:00.001-07:00

It's 1.35 a.m. and I just finished writing an essay for my Cambridge class tomorrow. I've seriously got to get a life.

I'll consider posting the essay up but right now I've gotta go to sleep!

The Ass Family

2008-05-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

It seems staying up till 4.30 in the morning really pays off. Perdagangan today wasn't so bad coz I finally managed to finish studying just in the knick of time. Funny incident though:

Ms Tye: Bryan, can you please staple the black paper to the notice board?

Bryan: Yes, Ms Tye.

a few staples and moments later....

Bryan: Ms Tye, I'm my tie is stuck to the board.

He had stapled his tie to the board. HAHA :)

I feel super weak right now. I think it's my complete and utter lack of SLEEP. But on the bright side, I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders completely and I can't wait for exams to be over!

Sa ee, Gee ee and mummy are going to KLCC on friday. I wanna go too but I can't because...

1. I have Cambridge classes after school

2. Prize giving ceremony ( I would've asked someone to keep my medals for me but seeing as I'm captain)

3. Gotta support someone for Math Olympiad :)

So I'm stuck in this horrible situation where shopping is calling for me.... :( Nevertheless, I gave mummy my shopping list already plus Sa ee knows what I want :)

Wise ass, Smart ass, Lazy ass, Kiss ass and Dumb ass :)

watch my baby go :)

P.s. Katt, you should start labelling which one of your asses is which ass as stated above :)

Wish me luck!

2008-05-19T07:51:00.001-07:00

Good news: I finally finished studying form 4.

Bad news: I've only begun form 5 and it is 11.11 p.m.

No matter, I'm trying to relax and keep on studying until I can't take it anymore. Which will be very soon seeing as I stayed up till 3 in the morning last night.

Dinner was nice, good to get away from studying for a while but I didn't take any pictures with Yuen coz I was just too exhausted. It's okay, there will be other times :)

Back to studying!

Stress kills......

2008-05-18T09:02:00.000-07:00

It's official that I don't practice what I preach.

I was supposed to start studying on friday right? my ass.

I was supposed to finish studying form 4 yesterday right? my ass.

I'm supposed to finish studying form 4 tonight right? double my ass.

arghhhh!!! I am SO screwed!

*breathe in happy air* *breathe out stressed air*

And why did I not finish studying? All because of the stupid, stupid, stupid television. This is what they call pengaruh media massa. Now I know what that means.

Have I mentioned that tomorrow, I have BM tuition from 2-4? Which is going to suck my afternoon away and I won't be able to study after that because I've got dinner with Yuen and her family (btw, there will be pictures to commemorate that dinner, mark my words)

Back to the issue, yes I am dead for perdagangan. Why, why on earth did I take perdagangan??? :(

Alright, I'm going to stay up studying till however long it takes to finish up my form 4 syllabus.

Dream Catch Me

2008-05-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

Do you know what's bad about having a 3 day break in between exams? The fact that you keep thinking that exams are OVER when they are NOT.

That's what I keep doing, I keep thinking "Oh, thank god it's friday. I can sleep in, relax......." then a thought springs to my mind "Oh shit! I have perdagangan on tuesday." There goes that fantasy of mine.

Today was a horrible day, exams were like shit because of Sejarah. Well, BM was fine because the question that came out for the karangans were the questions that I discussed with Mr Ramesh the night before :) I really hope I'll be able to get better marks now that I inserted at least 6 peribahasas in there.

Then came Sejarah....... *drum roll* it was the funniest paper I've ever sat for. Here's how sejarah was:

In the beginning:

Katt: *staring at the paper**turns around* Ness! Do you know how to do???

Bryan: WHERE'S THE NABIIIIIIIIII?????

Siew Pun: *stares at paper* Aiyoh, die loooooo....

Min Hua: *opens paper**closes paper* Aiya, sleep lah!

Rach: *opens paper** immediately starts writing furiously* haha :)

Me: *opens paper**stare* I'm screwed.

During the middle of the paper:

*Mama mia song playing in the background*

Hazrul: Mama miaaaa....

Katt: *bobbing head up and down while writing* Here we go again...

Class: MAMA!

Me: Count Camillo Benso telah menyatukan negara Itali MAMA MIA! dengan meminta bantuan daripada MAMA MIA! Napoleon.

Yep, that was how Sejarah went :) I swear that classroom is the worst place to have an examination. It's right next to the swimming pool and the canteen. So when the primary kids have their swimming lesson I can hear Yew Eng asking them to line up and swim. I couldn't even write my karangan properly.

I should really start studying Perdagangan tonight. Hah! Fat chance :)

I'm desperate for a new phone. I think my current phone hates me and that's why it's rebelling against me :( Help me choose! Which one??? I blame this decision making disability on Lisa. Hehe.

Sony Ericsson R306 - Pretty but not much features

Sony Ericsson W760 - Hell load of features but not that pretty

Sony Ericsson W890 - Features aren't so bad but only in black

HELP!!!

dream catch me when I fall or I won't come back at all...

This Love

2008-05-11T07:11:00.001-07:00

So I woke up at 10 yesterday with the objective of studying BUT I failed. sigh. Well, let me tell you how my day went. After I woke up, I watched Criminal Minds. Then Lisa and I ordered MCD which we ate till around 1 pm while watching Desperate Housewives. It's not my fault she eats like a squirrel. Anyway, after lunch I thought I was going to start studying but I decided to relax first by playing Marble Blast. Mummy went out shortly to the hairdresser's so I seized that opportunity to wrap their gifts.Then I had tuition at 5.15 till 7. Then, we went out to Allegro for dinner till 11 where Lisa and I had 6 bowls of clam soup and 4 bowls of Tiramisu dessert (yeah, I know). Came home, started studying till 3 in the morning.

This morning, I woke up at 11 to study again and yes, although I may have proceeded more but I'm still not satisfied because I've still got Bio, Physics, Ekonomi and Sejarah to go. Arghhh! Someone please take a knife and stab me. Stab, stab, stab. Due to not being able to finish studying, I'm not going to school tomorrow for some intensive studying. Hah! Fat chance I'm going to finish studying by tomorrow.

On a lighter note, I love This Love by The Veronicas :)

There you go:

I, I,
I can see it in your eyes
Taste it in our first kiss
Stranger in this lonely town (this lonely town)
Save me from my emptiness (save me)

You took my hand
You told me it would be ok
I trusted you to hold my heart
Now fate is pulling me away, from you

Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On this love

You've become a piece of me
Makes me sick to even think
Of mornings waking up alone
Searching for you in my sheets
Don't fade, away

Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in (won't give in)
I can't give up (can't give up)
On this love

I can't just close the door
(on this love)
I never felt anything like this before
(like this love)
Tell me the truth no matter what we're going through
Will you hold on too 'cause

Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On this love

Even if I leave you now (leave you now)
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around (not around)
I won't give in (won't give in)
I can't give up (can't give up)
I won't give in (won't give in)
I can't give up (can't give up)
On this love

Happily Never After

2008-05-09T07:24:00.000-07:00

I've been doing intensive accounts exercises since 8 p.m. and it's 12.45 a.m. now. I should've been studying chem instead :( I am so so so screwed.

Well, I'm just gonna have to fit all bio, chem and physics tomorrow. Can I do it? YES I CAN!

Okay, that was a little too enthusiastic.

The reason why I blogged at 7 in the morning was because Sa ee was supposed to come over to send both Lisa and I to school. However, she didn't reach on time so mummy had to send us instead.

Katt, Jas and I really have no life because we started playing a naming game. Like, name a brand or an aminal or a country that begins with the letter A then we proceed to the letter B and so on, so forth. Min Hua and Siew Pun joined the game later on but they failed miserably. HAHA.

There wasn't any Cambridge class today so I went home early. Sa ee came with mummy and Lisa to pick me up. I like the Harrier, it's really comfortable.

Something funny came up in the car as Ling was going for her formal and during the after party her main concern was food. Then Sa ee and mummy started saying that if Lisa went to the after party, she'd only think of going home to sleep and Ling would think of food whereas I'd think of partying. hahahhahaha. We're so different in many ways but we're still united as one in one very special way :)

I'm exhausted, I can't fight anymore. You don't get me but you say I don't get you. So much is expected of me and when I don't meet your expectations, you're disappointed in me but you just don't understand that I'm not that person. You show your emotions openly whereas I show mine in a subtle manner but you don't see it even though you say you do. If you do, then we wouldn't be having this isn't it? And now, there's a thin line between me and that door. I swore to myself that I will never let it happen again and if I have to take the necessary actions to protect myself then I will. The only keeping me from crossing that line is the fact that my heart is with you. Don't break it, keep it.

I'll never let another teardrop fall...

7 am

2008-05-08T16:11:00.000-07:00

It's 7 a.m. in the morning and I'm blogging. That's a first.

Well anyway, I was planning on blogging last night but I didn't get a chance to as a I was studying and by the time I stopped it was already too late to blog. I didn't go for tuition coz I was sure that I'd fall asleep what with all the talking going on and straying off the topic. So I stayed home, watched American Idol while doing my accounts homework and then proceeded to study chem. It didn't go as well as I hoped it would coz Lisa was watching Desperate Housewives next to me plus not to mention other distractions.

Oops, I have to go.

Marble Blast

2008-05-07T09:29:00.000-07:00

What did I learn during English today?

How to roll a marble :) through the computer. Well, you can't blame me alright. We were all supposed to read Ms. Tye's blog for notes on literature but obviously no one would read it right? So I know some were in facebook. some were chatting, some were surfing and I was marbling (I don't think that's a word).

I finally bought my accounts workbooks, the one that Katt uses for her tuition so I can start doing exercises anytime soon. I still need to study A LOT of things, I am so dead.

Oh damn it, I forgot all about my Cambridge homework. Ughhhh!

Deeper into the ocean

2008-05-03T23:32:00.000-07:00

I want to kill the flu virus :(

I'm starting to dislike my internet connection. It keeps going on and off causing me to get really, really frustrated.

Well, all the late nights and lack of water finally caught up to me because I'm down with the flu. It's better today but yesterday was really bad. I came home after Cambridge class with a heavy head and my flu already there. Then at 8.00 pm I had BM tuition which I really didn't wanna go for but I forced myself to because I've missed quite a lot already due to sports practices and stuff. So when I arrived I was still alright. However, when he started talking I could feel my eyes slowly closing and I was fighting with all my might to keep them open. I am NOT exaggerating. I nearly wanted to tell him that I couldn't take it anymore and that I needed to go home to sleep but I toughed it out till the end of class. Very, very bad day.

Lisa's over for the week because her parents are in Hong Kong. I think Sa-ee's coming over to teach her how to cook simple dishes so that she can survive in UK. But we need not worry as Lisa can survive on nothing but bread :)

Exams are next week.

Somehow that statement hasn't really sinked into my brains yet. Or I would be furiously studying right now but I'm not.

Moral is another pain in the buttocks because the format that Ms Sharmilah taught us last year is different from the format that Pn. Nor wants. So that basically means that we have to start from scratch. Well, at least I've nearly gotten all my pictures taken so I just need to print them out.

Blogger's taking a really long time to upload my pictures but I actually think that it's my internet connection's fault. But here are some of the pictures of today:

Bryan and Mokh during BM showing off their Fokus :)

Because we had nothing better to do while waiting for Siew Pun.

Monkey see, monkey do :)

Well, I'll post the other pictures up as soon as my internet connection doesn't decide to go psycho on me.

flu, flu go away,
do not come again,
in any other day,
to make me live my life in vain...

Labor's Day

2008-05-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

Labor's Day. A day to recognize all the laborers and to give them a day off. My theory is, if we students get a day off on Labor's Day too then that means that we don't have to do our homework either :)

Well, that was my way of getting out of doing my increasing pile of homework. I woke up at 2.30 anyway so whatever hopes of getting any work done was automatically destroyed. Lisa and Gee-ee came over for laksa then a few hours after that I had BM tuition. At the end of the day, my guilty conscious got hold of me and I ended up finishing my add math tuition homework and I'm on the way of doing one essay for my moral project. Yay me!

Lisa thinks I have flesh-eating fishes in my fish tank and that's why I can't stick my finger in :)

you put on quite a show,
really had me going...

cross

2008-04-30T07:21:00.000-07:00

procrastination = to delay or to defer.

That's exactly what I'm doing for my moral project. sigh, it's not my fault okay, I have to write 8 freaking essays! Plus it is in bahasa malaysia which makes it even worse.

Mummy's making asam laksa tomorrow. Wheee!! Lisa's coming over as well which means I'm probably not gonna get any homework done.

Oh and I've got more fascinating stories about Jasmine Loh.

i) Hwee Yin's birthday party is in Titiwangsa. Jasmine thinks it's in BANJARAN
TITIWANGSA and that we have to take a FERRY there. I quote "HA?? We have to go so
far???"

ii) For our moral monthly test, there was a question requiring us to tick which animal is
protected or almost extinct. The choices were: Harimau, Orang Utan, Monyet & Anjing.
Our Jasmine ticked MONYET.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH. Classic. Can't wait for more classic moments. I still love you fei mao :)

run far away...

take a bow

2008-04-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

Someone once told me that if you don't expect of it, the expected is what you'll get. Sure enough it was proven and I am proud :)

Back to school and studies once again. Thankfully we didn't have sejarah today but instead we had bm and chem. Well, I'd take chem over sejarah any day. Accounts was uneventful. As usual, we didn't pay attention to him and instead I did my maths tuition homework. I feel bad but you really can't blame us. It's the way he teaches, it just doesn't reach out to us.

Tuition was annoying and I got a little pissed. Well you see I don't learn add math in school so it's understandable if I lag a little bit and I take a little more time to comprehend things. It's not as easy as A, B, C anymore you know. Anyway, so just coz I take that extra few seconds or sometimes even minutes, the bullet train starts and I get left behind. You'd think that attention will be paid more to the individual who doesn't learn the subject in school but no such luck. I have to fight my way through I'm getting sick and tired of it. I don't even have the confidence that I used to have in me already. Not in add maths anyway. I need to get a life.

So back to more pressing matters, I've finally decided to start on my moral project. I know it's late but who cares. Sue me :)

I hardly get to see Q anymore. Not that I blame him but it's hard being in different classes and all. Mr Sheat takes his lunch so I basically see him during break, in between classes and after school which is slightly less than an hour a day. Then there's the phone bill issue which yes, I plead guilty for. So that means no more phone calls. That just leaves us to text messages. Yipee.

I miss San. I'm sorry I've been so busy with cheer and sports. Though we somehow get through it at the end of the day :)

On a final note, Ms. Jasmine Loh has been upgraded from water buffalo to fat cat or black chicken (depending on my mood) :) so from now on I'll be either calling her fei mao or hei se gong chi. HAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

don't tell me you're sorry coz you're not...

couch potato

2008-04-28T07:47:00.000-07:00

I am turning into such a couch potato.

I spent the whole day watching nothing but tv. sigh. I dread going back to school tomorrow. That just means more homework, more studying and mid years are approaching fast and that isn't going to be fun....

On the other hand, I am quietly but restlessly waiting for the arrival and launch of my sony ericsson phone. If I wait any longer, I might explode.

stop, look and walk away...

help me

2008-04-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

Happy ending......? My ass.

Today was another dvd watching day. Started off with:

Untraceable

then proceeded to:

In The Name of the King

then.....:

Mad Money

and finally......

The Bank Job

Yes, I spent the day being a couch potato amd getting ideas on how to rob a bank :) Out of these 4 movies, I'd say that The Bank Job was the most interesting and eye-opening whilst the freakiest was Untraceable.

Tomorrow's a holiday! whooooosssshhhhhh!

I give up......

the day

2008-04-25T06:01:00.000-07:00

I have energy to blog now.

why?

coz.......

HARIMAU WON!!!!!!!

We won! We won! We won!

Well, it was a tie with helang but who cares. We won!!

okay, *breathe*

Everything went so well. The pumping triangle was awesome and so was Iwawan's scorpion. Aqilah was so brave up there and our dance was so synchronized. I was a bit sesat though at one part coz I forgot what was next. Oops, my bad. But most importantly we had fun and we had spirit up there :)

Pictures will be up soon along with the video. heh.

Finally after god knows how long I was able to fall dead on my couch and just fall asleep. We get to perform tomorrow at sports day too! I hope it won't be muddy though.

GO HARIMAU!!

xoxo,
ness

16 going on 17

2008-04-21T04:42:00.000-07:00

Turning seventeen makes me feel old.

I've no energy to blog, I'll blog soon.

xoxo,
ness

CJ7!

2008-04-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

Fact about Vanessa Ho:

I do math to calm myself down.

Fine, you can call me a geek but I don't care because it works.

Today was Rach's 17th birthday party. She's not exactly 17 yet but she will be in 6 days :) The only reason why she had her party today was because stupid study skills is on the 18th of April to the 20th of April. Thus, destroying any plans that she and I may have for our birthdays.

I don't know what I want to do for my birthday. My mum asked me about it today but I honestly didn't know what to do. To be honest, I'd rather not do anything but I kind of want to as well so I'm stuck. Anyway, I have time to think about it.

Lisa stayed over the weekend because her parents went to Singapore. On Friday, Carissa was over as well because Alvin had tuition so all 3 of us watched

27 Dresses

and

Water Horse

The next day, Lisa and I woke up at around 1 something. We ordered 2 pizza's, chicken wings and a bottle of coke and while eating we watched

Vantage Point

Not a bad movie but it kept rewinding to show the views of 8 people. Then we moved on to

The Assassination of Jesse James

which was a VERY, VERY, VERY slow movie. We suffered through 3/4 of the movie and fast forwarded the last 1/4 of the movie. It would be a good movie if it weren't so SLOW.

Next was

Stardust

Yes, I finally watched it and it's such a nice movie! Not a bad fairytale actually plus, it was really sweet. I like Robert De Niro's role in it though, as the gay captain of the ship.

So after that movie both of us showered then continued with our movie marathon without dinner as we ate quite a lot in the late afternoon. We then watched

I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry

Then our last movie was

Ratatouille

again.

Yep, that was our movie marathon then it came to today where I went to One World for Rach's party and Lisa met up with her parents at the chinese restaurant upstairs. We were all supposed to watch a movie after lunch but it was too late so I decided to go home instead.

Sport practice starts tomorrow so all our classes will be cut down to 30 minutes a lesson. That'll be funny :)

OMG! The CJ7 creature is so adorable!!!!! *scream!*

"flying round the world so slow,
crying as the hours past,
only happiness will make me glow,
followed by the hollowness that's all too vast."

cross

2008-04-09T07:16:00.000-07:00

Third day of the week.

Current status: half-dead.

Maths test was today. Surprisingly I finished the paper before time so I had time to check my work. Hopefully I can score better marks than the last time.

The rest of the day was a bore. There was no floating of classes today so we stayed in the art room after break onwards. So because the art students had to use that class for their art period we had no choice but to stay there as well coz we had no classes to go to. Katt owes me for doing her belanjawan tunai :)

Cheer today was fun especially for the boys. Iwawan had fun doing basket tosses but instead of him wanting to do more, in the end it was Faris, who was base, who wanted to throw him up more. As for the girls there weren't many but enough I guess.

Tomorrow isn't going to be a good day. Chem test, Bio test, Physics test and Accounts test. sigh....

sue me.

stop

2008-04-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

My tagboard is empty.

Because I very smartly helped yuen get a tagboard of her own by using my account. Guess what happened? All the messages in my tagboard ended up in her tagboard too. So I went back, deleted all the messages thinking that it will only be for the one that I'm going to paste on Yuen's blog but the same empty tagboard appeared in my blog. Argh! In the end I created another account for her in cbox and made a new one for her while repairing my now all so empty tagboard.

I found out that I studied chem for nothing because the test wasn't even today but no harm done. At least I don't have to rush and panic, what with the amount of stress I have now.

It's getting very annoying. The slightest thing will trigger my emotions and I start crying.

I need to go for yoga classes or pilates.

run and hide,
I am not here,
while on the side,
you're all I fear.

Cherries

2008-04-07T03:53:00.000-07:00

I wish I was the prime minister of Malaysia so I could ban all sorts of tests whether class tests or monthly tests. I get the idea of having mid year and mid sem but not monthly tests. I mean they're just gonna test you on it during the bigger exams anyway! grrr!

The good thing about it though is that I only have to memorize a little part of it. Unless it's subjects like chem or bio or sej. Then I DIE. For instance, my ekons test today was a blast. I only had to memorize a small bit and I scored 84%. Well, I think I could've scored more but that ain't the point.

I've got perdagangan, possibly chem and accounts test tomorrow. great..... just great........

The tailor came today, it was a little frantic at first but it all worked itself out. Did stunts after that and boy was that part funny :)

Apparently I still remember my mandarin. I could even write my chinese characters although forgetting the middle character of my name wasn't exactly what you would call smart. Spent the whole of physics writing simple mandarin sentences with Min Hua. Before you judge me, I did pay attention. How did I pay attention? Because Mr. Pancha was repeating the same thing over and over again. So in the end I grasped the concept, applied it and I got the correct answer.

flying across the night,
watching as all moved below,
hoping to fall with all my might,
never quite knowing what may follow.

sabotage

2008-04-05T08:18:00.000-07:00

pink panther is so funny, especially steve martin. hahahahha.

didn't study at all today. in fact I spent it watching tv the whole day. how awesome. but I did manage to buy the crepe paper needed for the team's pom poms.

it's 12.53 in the morning and I'm going to eat maggie mee now. it's going to make me fat as hell but heck, I'm stressed.

xoxo,
ness

run and hide

2008-04-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

I finished my set of pom poms! :D okay, I know it isn't exactly an accomplishment considering how my other 10 teammates have to do theirs too but I'm still a little relieved anyway.

I'm running out of time, I'm panicking but it's all hidden inside you'll never know.

monthly tests are next week, cheer is in 2 and a half weeks and mid-year exams are in 4 weeks. sigh, I barely have time to study. I don't know what to do.

I'm just gonna sleep.

xoxo,
ness

2008-03-31T03:06:00.000-07:00

29th March:

played volleyball and lost. haha. as for basketball they got 3rd. not what they expected but it's still alright. later on that night was yuen's birthday party at cineleisure, tony roma's. guess who was there? SANDRA CHONG :D hehehehhee. thank god nothing bad happened. all four of us, nikki, san, yuen and I were re-united in one row. they tried to make me do the animals sounds but i refused. hehe :p sorry yuen if you felt left out. we just didnt want you to be torn between entertaining your guests and us, you know? but we still love you deep deep :) I miss all 3 of them so much. I miss having fun, spending time, getting high on sweets with them. ultimately I just miss them :( anyway, here are the pictures!

30th March:

had lunch with lisa, gee ee, gee tiao, sa ee and sa tiao in the chinese restaurant in renaissance hotel. then we adjourned to the lounge for a bit of coffee. later in the evening I went to pavilion. went into juicy couture shop to look for ling's handbag which costs rm 1575. omg. i think it's better if you bought it there, ling. lol. tangs was having a huge sale with more reduction but the variety wasnt there. however, I did manage to buy a kipling handbag :p hehehehe.

31st March:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YUEN! I messaged her at approximately 12.39 am on the morning of her birthday. or as so she said. didn't play any games for games carnival so I just went to show support. quang played water polo and he scored many :) unfortunately I fell sick. sigh. I guess all the sports and lack of sleep finally caught up with me. that night I slept at guess what time? NINE O'CLOCK. hahahhaha. first time in history for vanessa ho. I really needed the rest anyway. didn't go for tuition, instead I just lay on my couch, dead. my whole body just shut down.

1st April:

Happy April Fool's Day! :) woke up with a heavy head but still managed to drag myself out of bed to go to school. it took us one over hour to get the cheras and I had a softball match in the morning. thank god my match wasn't the first match. so I arrived at 8.15 am to find that the first match had not even started yet so I was safe. haha. our first match was against seladang and we won! they were apparently the stronger team but anyhow we won :) but min hua did great in both games :) as for our second game against beruang, we won as well which meant that we were champions! :D haha so happy! sadly though I didn't really get to bat coz everytime I step onto the base, the pitcher keeps giving me balls. as in it's his fault so if he throws 4 bad balls to me that I can't hit then I get to walk to the next base. for every inning I did that, except for the last one wear I finnally got to bat. lol. the team did great and so did quang :) handball boys harimau got 2nd and for girls we got 4th place but it's okay :) I've got to sleep early tonight. netball tomorrow. hopefully we'll do well :)

GO HARIMAU!

xoxo,
ness

turning colours

2008-03-28T09:42:00.000-07:00

I am BLACK! I am so dark it's not funny anymore.

house deco was today at cheras. got there at around 7.58 am when I was supposed to be there at 7.30 am. haha. the competition started at 8.30 am right through 1.30pm. the sun was SCORCHING hot okay. plus I was out in the sun painting the gunney sacks. out theme this is year is horror but not in the haunted ghost or vampire kinda horror but more of the inner horror of people like the horror of students, the horror of parents and so on. we had ideas but it didn't really turn up well. like the walls didn't go up as planned so it was up to jun kit and I to twist it to convince the judges that it was done on purpose. in a way we did manage to do that but in the end we got 4th place. beruang got 1st, congrats to sean and aemilia :) helang 2nd and seladang 3rd. I think seladang's was nice. great work em and steph :)

tomorrow's another big day. playing volleyball and in between that I'm gonna be running up and down to watch basketball as well. haha.

crazy la. teacher alan wants ALL my hw tmw and I've hardly had time to do any coz of games carnival. but I managed to finish add math, mod math and accounts all in one night. plus I still have bm tuition hw to do by monday :( sigh.

yuen's party is tmw at tony roma's. san's going to be there :D but my mum doesnt know. I don't know what's going to happen. I hope nothing bad happens. I really hope not.....

okay, I need to sleep.

xoxo,
ness

new found expression

2008-03-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

I step into my front lobby. I turn on the lights, and there it is. standing there with the grandness it used to and still possesses............. my piano.

HAHA.

after god knows how many months of not touching my piano, I finally touched it last night. it all started when my dear cousin lisa whom I miss btw, texted me telling me to check this guy: kyle landry out on youtube. so having nothing to do except my bm tuition hw, I decided to check it out. it turns out kyle landry is a guy of not more than 17 years of age who can seriously play the piano. I am not joking. check him out on youtube and you'll see. his fingers practically fly all over the keyboard. my eyes hurt after a while coz I was concentrating too much on his fingers. anyway, my personal favourite is "the separation" and also his improvisation and version of "Geruda Valley".

seeing him play the piano made me wish I could play like that as well although I know it's not possible for me to EVER play like that :( so that got me to get up and play my piano. I still had not lost my touch just yet. I enjoyed playing it last night. today, min hua gave me the piano score for my favourite mandarin song and I am proud to announce that I managed to learn and play 1 and a half pages :D of course I have to keep practicing to maintain the song.

my mum asked me whether I was interested in continuing with music studies. I'm still thinking about it :)

I finally had a talk with mr sheat today. I wouldn't say that it was bad but it was bad enough. because the way he asked me whether was anyone or anything distracting me and he even asked me for all the sports that I was joining for games carnival and sports day. so basically I just need to study hard and work harder into improving my grades. which I fully intend to do. Yes, I Will.

now I'm tired but I know I'll just lay in bed and not fall asleep. I'll try anyway. nights :)

xoxo,
ness

dragon :)

2008-03-25T09:54:00.000-07:00

if I eat anymore dragonfruit, I will turn into a dragon :(

like this :)

cheer's going on well, just need a lot more practices which will be after games carnival. today was honestly quite boring because of all the double periods but I did get to skip moral due to house deco meeting. however, in the second period pn jamaliah was pissed at all the people who went for meeting and apparently so was cik zakiah.
during english however I got a splitting headache which nearly killed me. luckily ms tye gave me panadol and I slept throughout her class. this is what happens when I don't sleep the night before. I didn't miss much anyway, there were talking about pre-marital sex. HAHA.

I hardly had anytime to do my tuition hw today coz of house deco meeting during lunch and also during tutorial we were talking to ms kaniya plus I had cheer after school then right after I came home, showered and ate, I had tuition already. yep, I was swamped today.

then after tuition, yuen asked if she could borrow a book that was high up on a shelf. so I reached up without using a chair then she HAD to say: AHHHH! It's going to fall!!!

silly girl.

courtesy of yuen yee :) I miss them so much :( HAHAHA I have a halo on top of my head :p

this is min hua's hotel, katt's ikan bakar restaurant, my spa and katt and my bank :)

haha this is what we do during bm. the hotel would be min hua's which consists of my spa in the hotel and which katt's ikan bakar restaurant on the roof. plus our bank is in the hotel as well. the helicopter is min hua's, the limo is katt's and the yacht is mine. why does mine have to be a yacht? :(

"do not stand at my grave and weep,
I'm not there I do not sleep.
I am the thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glimpse of snow.
I am the sunlight on rippened green,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there,
I did not die."

xoxo,
ness

second chance

2008-03-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

have I mentioned how much I despise drawing? why? because I have to erase my mistakes over and over again until I get it right. haha. this is why I dropped art and also because I can't draw to save my life, seriously.

either ways I'm happy with my art work and designing :) hopefully it'll turn out nice and as expected. games carnival is approaching and so is the next monthly test. joy......

here are the pictures at tanjung jara as promised. it was an amazing holiday, VERY relaxing which was what I really needed. plus, I finally got to cycle properly and I rocked at it. haha.

the book which I read there. great book btw.

the outside of our villa.

playing congkak but I got thrashed on the first game but won the second :D

tasting and eating my own cooking. lol

with ann and the chef cooking :)

beautiful beach <3

in the villa.

I definitely wanna go back there again :)

"My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
'cause I'm just dying just to see you again."

this song, I love :)

xoxo,
ness

not a care in the world

2008-03-19T06:54:00.001-07:00

do you know what destroys a person?

CARING

just plain simple caring. just by caring your world just falls down around you. so I've decided to not have a care in the world. if it happens, it happens. if it was meant to be, it'll be. I don't wanna be the person I've been lately so I'm going to close my eyes, tolerate, have patience and hopefully, obtained a little peace and enlightenment.

tomorrow's a holiday! well, not so much coz there's sports practice for games carnival so I'm going to school from 8-10 in the morning to play volleyball. haha yes katt, I'm joining and I'll be going against you :( then later at 2 I've got tuition with yuen, then later on maybe dinner to celebrate my mum's birthday. sadly gee-ee, gee-tiao & lisa ain't here to celebrate with us. sa-ee's here though but I don't think she'll join us for dinner. so it'll just be the 3 of us.

btw, my new layout is so pretty :) courtesy of hazrul who taught me where and how to get it done during accounts class. HAHA. had initial problems about the font size coz it was so tiny but now it's all okay.

now I'm going to do accounts and add math work. oh, maybe I'll try to upload pictures from tanjung jara.

xoxo,
ness

close

2008-03-18T03:34:00.000-07:00

stupid blogger won't upload my pictures.

anyway, i got my exam papers back and i did very badly in science. sigh and mr sheat wants to see me to ask me why i did so badly. what am i going to say? i suppose the truth would be the best. as for others i did so so but not good enough and certainly not good enough for my mum. i havent told her yet. but i'm proud of my bm coz i definitely improved :) i hope i can maintain it and as for the rest of the subjects, i definitely need to buck up. and i will, I WILL STUDY. haha very funny.

stayed back today for a captain's meeting with the teachers about rules for games carnival which is on the 28th of march till 2nd of april.

my neighbour got robbed last night so now my mum's all scared and paranoid so i'm getting a panic button installed in my room and i get to bring my phone upstairs to sleep now. haha. funny.

xoxo,
ness

after a long absence

2008-03-16T08:20:00.000-07:00

so I open up my blog and I look at my latest post. *gasp* it was so long ago! can't believe I haven't blogged in ages. well I simply must blog now.

came back from tanjung jara this evening. feeling so lazy to go to school tomorrow but thank god it's only for 3 days then holiday for 4 days again :D

anyway, i'd better go to bed or I wont wake up for school tmw. i'll tell you all about tanjung jara tmw. bye!

xoxo,
ness

the perfect horror movie

2008-03-03T02:42:00.000-08:00

yesterday started out as a perfectly normal day. In the morning I went for dim sum at ritz carlton with lisa and her family along with my youngest uncle and aunty on my dad's side. the meal was alright but I don't know why I seem to be eating less and less everyday now.

after that all of us went to klcc where I bought.......................... *drum roll*

MY NINE WEST SHOES

I've been waiting for these pair of pumps since forever. the original price was rm 300+ but after 60% discount, the price was only rm 100+. so obviously I grabbed it. I would've been crazy not to get it right? so I did :D

I wanted a really, really, really pretty guess bag but mummy wouldn't let me get it. she says I have too many which is so NOT true :(

after that we went to Ijok, Kuala Selangor to have dinner. yes, the name sounds funny and we came up with many pronunciations for it like:

i) eat chok - means eat porridge in cantonese.
ii) it's a joke - the place is a joke
iii) he choked - he ate porridge then he choked. HAHAHA.

lame, I know but that's what my family does. so anyway, while we were eating dinner, it the wind started blowing furiously. it was an open air coffee shop. so the customers who were sitting at the side of the place started moving inside to where there was more shelter. Suddenly, the rain started pouring heavily and there was lightning along with thunder. I could tell that the wind was very strong coz I could see the campaign banners and buntings flying all over the place. I sat there, quietly and I was scared. I honestly was. The rain started beating in and the floor got wet.

This carried on for 15 minutes then to complete the night, the whole place went pitch BLACK. then came the thunder and guess who screamed? yes, yours truly :) lisa had to clam me down while I was closing my eyes as tightly as I could and praying that it'll all be okay. Hey, I admit it, I'm afraid of the dark as well as loud sounds.

5 minutes later the lights came back on but the rain was still pouring heavily. We sat there for quite sometime, stranded and I was clutching onto my phone and perdagangan notes for dear life. HAHA. part of me wanted to be stranded there longer so that I could go back late and have the excuse that I'm too tired to go to school the next day then I get to skip perdagangan exam! but..... I really really wanted to go home. haha.

We finally left as the rain started to subside. when I was young I used to think that when it rained it was as if the sky was peeing :p hahahhahahah. in my defense, I was only 5 :)

I slept at 3 that night. no, not because I was scared. I was studying horrible horrible perdagangan.

The paper today was not exactly great. I'll be lucky if I even get a A2 :(

haha 40% off :p

<3

xoxo,
ness

dilemma

2008-02-29T23:50:00.001-08:00

must study....

must study....

I MUST STUDY!!!

:(

sigh....

xoxo,
ness